Just A Girl

It's DONE!!

2012-01-30T17:22:00.001-05:00

Here it is: still empty, but complete.

MY OFFICE!!

It's bright, warm and cozy.

Best of all, it's

JUST IN TIME!!

A special thanks goes out to my husband, Mark, who spent countless hours designing and building this space for me to creatively express myself.

I promise; it will be worth every second!!

Guilt and Shame Need Not Apply

2012-01-24T15:46:00.000-05:00

I don't blog regularly.

I feel bad about it.

WHY?

Because "they" say I should.

But who's "they"?

I guess I'd call "they" the promotion and/or blog experts. You know, the ones who advise you on how to get and keep followers?

Well guess what? "They" don't live my life. "They" don't grapple every day with trying to balance it all out.

But I do.

So, for 2012, I have a saying: GUILT and SHAME need not apply HERE!

I am going to do the very best I can and be proud of it.

(I blogged more in 2011 than in 2010, so YAY ME!!)

I am going to stop reaching for perfection.

(No more of that: MUST post or else...)

This year, I think this blog is really going to focus on what I read and how it benefits me. It could be a writing skill I'm studying or the way a book touched my heart. Either way, I want to have a heck of a lot more fun with what I think. But most importantly: GUILT and SHAME shall not be included!!

Six Months After the Springfield Tornado

2011-12-01T15:30:00.001-05:00

June 1, 2011 changed the lives of everyone living in Western Massachusetts. On that day, a historic tornado ripped through, leaving a path of death and destruction.

Restoration continues, despite damage from other episodes of severe weather.

But the tornado is not forgotten.

On this six month anniversary, I'd like to take a moment to thank everyone who has contributed stories and pictures to the Springfield Tornado Website and Facebook Page. Shawn Morse and I are in the final stages of compiling them for use in a book.

A portion of the proceeds from the book will go right back into relief for the area.

Our targeted release date is June 1, 2012.

Because "We Must Stand Together"....

Book Review: SHINE by LAUREN MYRACLE

2011-11-29T20:59:00.000-05:00

When her best guy friend falls victim to a vicious hate crime, sixteen-year-old Cat sets out to discover who in her small town did it. Richly atmospheric, this daring mystery mines the secrets of a tightly knit Southern community and examines the strength of will it takes to go against everyone you know in the name of justice.

Against a backdrop of poverty, clannishness, drugs, and intolerance, Myracle has crafted a harrowing coming-of-age tale couched in a deeply intelligent mystery. Smart, fearless, and compassionate, this is an unforgettable work from a beloved author.

Description: Lauren Myracle really knows how to place the reader in the scene. Her use of description adds an emotional element that I think many attempt and few achieve. I mean, the entire opening is description. Most of the time, that's an immediate turn off for me. But with Shine, I was drawn in to each beautiful word and found myself yearning for more. There were times I did feel a little bogged down, but overall, I learned a lot about description with this book. (Score: 9/10)

Narrative: A lot of Shine happens inside the main character Cat's head. This made for an emotional read, but sometimes I found myself a little lost in flashbacks. For the most part, Lauren Myracle, really made the transitions easy but there were a few blips on my radar, especially toward the end. I am a fast reader and details sometimes escape me, but I really think in this situation it was the style that threw me off. I can say that I learned about narrative from reading Shine and enjoyed it more often than not. (Score: 8/10)

Dialogue: Shine is set in the south, so Lauren Myracle really has to depend on dialect. She does it really well. I found myself lost in the language and even desiring to speak in the drawl of the the characters. (It made my family crazy! LOL) Dialogue is an area of Shine that was very easy to read and enjoyable. I'm not from the south-so maybe I'm not a good judge-but to me, the conversations felt real and authentic. (Score: 10/10)

Characterization: Cat, the main character, was very well developed as well as Patrick-a sort of absent but still important character. I really felt I knew them. The other, secondary characters, sometimes felt vague, contrived and/or predictable. THAT said-I think it's important to note Shine is written in first person. That person is troubled with an altered vision of those around her. She's unreliable. So, as a novice writer, I'm left to wonder if what I'm feeling toward the secondary characters is what Lauren Myracle intended. Considering how well the book was written, I'm betting this was the case. (Score: 10/10)

Resolution: I didn't like the ending of Shine. I wanted to like it, but, well, nope, it didn't happen. I loved the book right up to the "matchbook" clue. (I use this term to avoid a spoiler for those who haven't read it.) At that point, things quickly escalated to outlandish. All the typical tasks were performed, all loose ends wrapped up, but it didn't feel as authentic as the beginning. (Score: 8/10)

I devoured shine. I sucked in the words quickly and with tears in my eyes. So, I really hate to say this, but I was disappointed in the ending. I believe in love and that it saves all, but in this case it just didn't develop that way. I also believe in forgiveness, seeing the story from the other person's perspective, however, in Shine I almost got the sense that bad behavior was justified. I felt sad and let down. There was tons of action, that's for sure, but I found it distracting and a little disturbing. Maybe others feel differently or maybe that's what the author intended. If so...well, good. I appreciate other view points and think they should be shared. So, I'd recommend this book to teen both teen boys and girls, because both of the important topics need to be discussed. I rate this book 4.5 out of 5 stars.

Fourteen Years Ago Today....

2011-11-07T14:07:00.000-05:00

Mr & Mrs Mark D. Kapinos

I married the man of my dreams on November 7, 1997.

Yes, I really did have dreams about him before we met.

Weird, but true.

And since that day, I've had a best friend beside me.

We've disagreed, fought, had our issues, but it's always come down to one thing: US.

And neither one of us has forgotten that through the chaos of life and the whirlwind of kids.

So, thank you Moosey for a great fourteen years and here's to MANY MORE!!!! I LOVE YOU!!

Love, ME

A Bit of Silliness....

2011-10-27T19:59:00.000-04:00

Dear J. Lo,

I SO know how you feel.

Sincerely,

Lo Jo

Book Review: CALEB'S WARS by DAVID DUDLEY

2011-10-25T15:44:00.000-04:00

Caleb lives in a world at war. War news is on everyone’s mind, and Caleb’s older brother, Randall, is likely to be sent overseas. The presence of German POWs in Caleb’s rural Georgia community is a constant reminder of what’s happening in Europe. Locked in a power struggle with his domineering father and fighting to keep both his temper and his self-respect in dealing with whites, Caleb finds his loyalties shifting and his certainties slipping away. This coming-of-age story, set in a time before the civil rights movement emerged, traces one young man’s growing commitment to justice and to the courage needed to protect it.

Houghton Mifflin Harcourt
Imprint: Clarion Books
Pub Date: 10/24/2011

Description: Caleb's Wars is a historical novel set in 1944, during World War II. David Dudley gives just the right amount of description to make the setting clear without overloading the reader. Many of the details are hidden in the narrative so I did not feel burdened or distracted. By the end of the first chapter, I felt like I was in rural Georgia with the heat and dust standing outside the Dixie Bell Cafe. (Score: 8/10)

Narrative: David Dudley chose first person to tell Caleb's story. This POV lead to a sharing of intimate thoughts and feelings of the main character. The narrative used was well organized, concise and interesting. A lot of detail was given in a way that helped move the story along. I really enjoyed seeing the world through Caleb's eyes. It was often I found myself lost to the emotion of Caleb's Wars. (Score: 8/10)

Dialogue: Okay, here is an area where Caleb's Wars is very unique. David Dudley uses dialects, rural southern and African American in a most talented way. It's part of the story and adds to the authenticity of the characters. What I found most interesting, was the way David Dudley shows the reader how the African Americans were forced to speak in a degrading way, even when they knew proper grammar. So, if you want an example of how to properly use dialect in a novel, Caleb's Wars is one I would recommend. (Score: 8/10)

Characterization: It's interesting to note that there's quite a few characters in Caleb's Wars. Many of them are minor or temporary. But to me, that adds to the realism of fiction. In real life, we have people who only serve one purpose. Many times as I've revised my novel, I've been encouraged to cut out ones that don't accomplish multiple tasks. But in Caleb's Wars, it works really well to establish timeline and sense of place. (Score: 8/10)

Resolution: I was pleasantly surprised and mildly disappointed in the ending of Caleb's Wars. I think I expected the usual wrap it up and neatly packaged ending. And that's a thought I can not explain. Maybe because it was a historical novel or possibly because I was enjoying it so much, but the book just sort of ended. OR MAYBE...I felt unsatisfied because I couldn't believe those final few scenes could be the truth. But it is. And I have a pretty strong feeling that is exactly how David Dudley wants us to feel. After all, it's how Caleb felt. (Score: 7/10)

As a reader, I enjoyed Caleb's Wars. It's not earth shattering or fast paced, but it's not meant to be. It's a snapshot glimpse into the life of someone else during a different time. And it's clear David Dudley is not only familiar but passionate about his characters. I think this book is a great addition to any library of history teachers, especially in middle or high schools. I'd recommend Caleb's Wars to lovers of history, haters of discrimination and supporters of standing up for your rights. I rate this book 4 out of 5 stars.

Why I Love Whitney on NBC

2011-10-20T17:39:00.001-04:00

I'm not much of a TV watcher...never really have been. Well, there was this time, a few years back when Thursday was reserved for "Friends" night, but that ended with the demise of the series. Since then, I've been channel surfing and coming up with nothing.

That's okay. I've filled my time with family, reading and writing.

But I think...THAT'S ABOUT TO CHANGE!!

I can not watch an episode of Whitney on NBC without rolling in laughter. I cry tears and my ribs hurt when it's over-even if I'm watching it for the fourth or fifth time.

I don't know...maybe because it feels like I'm watching someone I can finally identify with...a woman with a few hang-ups, a lot of opinions and no fear about expressing them. Someone like that is special and pretty hard to find. (Wink, wink to anyone who knows me.)

So, here's one of my favorite clips. I love it-especially Whitney's thoughts on roses. Enjoy and may you'll laugh as hard as I do every time I see it!!

I Laugh in the Face of Failure

2011-10-18T15:32:00.000-04:00

GROOVY HEART
© Dejan Savic | Dreamstime.com

I LAUGH in the face of failure?

Who says that?

Actually: ME. Failure does NOT exist in my world.

So, I bet you think I'm cool, huh?

Yeah, um, not so much.

You see, the problem I really have is that I fear SUCCESS.

HUH??

Yup. You heard me.

I can fail over and over again. No problem, well, maybe I'll get a little frustrated or something, but so what? It means I try again.

BUT SUCCESS??

What does that even mean?

How is it measured?

Maybe that's the problem. There's no clear-cut way to decide if you're successful or not.

OR MAYBE....

The lack of definition is the answer!!

Oh, yeah, I got it now.

I'll never be successful.

SO!

I'll never stop trying to get better.

And I no longer need to be afraid of success.

Book Review: HOW TO SAVE A LIFE by SARA ZARR

2011-10-12T12:33:00.000-04:00

Photo Property of Hachette Book Group

How to Save a Life

By Sara Zarr

ISBN: 9780316036061
Published by: LITTLE BROWN BKS YOUNG READERS
Genre: JUVENILE FICTION
Published on: 10/18/2011
Subformat: YOUNG ADULT

Jill MacSweeny just wishes everything could go back to normal. But ever since her dad died, she's been isolating herself from her boyfriend, her best friends--everyone who wants to support her. And when her mom decides to adopt a baby, it feels like she's somehow trying to replace a lost family member with a new one.

Mandy Kalinowski understands what it's like to grow up unwanted--to be raised by a mother who never intended to have a child. So when Mandy becomes pregnant, one thing she's sure of is that she wants a better life for her baby. It's harder to be sure of herself. Will she ever find someone to care for her, too?

As their worlds change around them, Jill and Mandy must learn to both let go and hold on, and that nothing is as easy--or as difficult--as it seems.

Critically acclaimed author and National Book Award finalist Sara Zarr delivers a heart-wrenching story, told from dual perspectives, about the many roads that can lead us home.

Description:  Sara Zarr has a poetic way of describing scenes and people. It's almost musical. Her words flow easily through my mind, painting a clear picture without overwhelming the senses. Right from the start, How to Save a Life  drew me in and held my attention. (Score: 9/10)

Narrative:  Jill and Mandy are teens from different backgrounds brought together because of their own individual circumstances. How to Save a Life is told from alternating perspectives of the two girls. To accomplish this, Sara Zarr utilized quite a bit of narrative. This lead to a lot of background information presented per character. And it's done beautifully. I felt I was able to really know both girls. True fact: I couldn't read this book in public due to inability to control spontaneous tearful outbursts. Yup-the narrative in this story was every thing a great book should be. (Score: 10/10)

Dialogue: I think Sara Zarr is really a teen hiding behind an adult. The dialogue in this book is so authentic I could hear the voices in my head. (Okay, maybe I shouldn't admit that, but it's TRUE. lol) Sometimes in books, though, it's tough to tell the grown up speech from the teen speech; but not in How to Save a Life. Even without tags, it was easy to pick up who was speaking when. (Score: 9/10)

Characterization: The characters in How to Save a Life stay in my mind even though I finished the book weeks ago. To me, they were real people who shared their stories only with me. I wonder how things are working out, and then laugh at myself because it's all made up. That's great characterization and I can only hope to be that talented one day. (Score: 9/10)

Resolution: Sara Zarr's book endings always make me sad because the experience is over.  Other than that, the resolutions are always perfect for me in every way: conclusive yet open ended enough to think for myself. I want more. I need more. It's rare that I read a book over again, but ALL of Sara Zarr's books are on my bookshelf to be pilfered through when I need a fix. I guess I'd say her books never end for me and that's the greatest resolution of all. (Score: 9/10)

I'm not going to lie. I'm biased. I've loved Sara Zarr's books since I first stumbled upon Story of a Girl while doing research for my own YA novel. Oh, and yeah, I took a workshop with her in June, but besides THAT I really think she is one of the greatest writers of realistic fiction out there. ALL of her books have touched upon issues of my heart-personal things that I really don't think I can talk about here.

But, How to Save a Life's impact I can discuss. My father died suddenly seven years ago. I'm an adult and was an adult when I lost him, but Jill's expression of grief was SO VERY close to mine that it felt like I lost him yesterday. This summer, after reading How to Save a Life I grieved his loss all over again. Even writing this blog has tears forming in my eyes. Sara Zarr put thoughts into words that I can't verbalize. Better yet, she gave me tools to share with others what it feels like to lose a parent. And that's only ONE of the issues she touches upon in this book.

How to Save a Life is a great read for anyone who enjoys heart wrenching, inspiring and beautiful stories all wrapped up in one. It's genre is Young Adult, but I believe it's much broader than that. The topics are applicable to most age groups. I'm thinking this one, much like her others, will be up for many different awards. I'd rate this book 4.5 out of 5 stars.

For a great review with a discussion of a different issue, check out Sera River's blog.

AND for an inspiring interview of Sara Zarr click on over to Thalo Magazine.

Overcoming the Fantasy

2011-10-03T14:54:00.000-04:00

White Horse Beach Plymouth MA

It's October 2011.

That means next month is November, also known in my world as NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month).

I won't be participating, though, as I have a very exciting non-fiction project due December 1st AND I'll be spending 9 glorious days in Disney World (my heaven).

But that doesn't mean I'm not thinking about fiction. Actually, I am. A LOT. Because last year, I started a project titled "White Horse Beach" and I need to finish it.

One problem though: I absolutely HATE it!

Okay, I don't hate it. Actually, I haven't even looked at it since last year. But I've been thinking about what it's missing. And three things have inspired me to give up my fantasy of keeping the main characters friends.

1) I DON'T WRITE FANTASY and let's face it, a teen girl and teen boy staying friends during the summer at a beach town is pure fantasy, in my world anyway.

2) While reading The Hunger Games (I'm on book two of the triology, Catching Fire) I came to realize that a romantic relationship at White Horse Beach isn't necessarily a bad thing.

3)Finally, I heard Lady Antebellum's Just a Kiss and KNEW, right away...that's the story I NEED to tell.

Book Review: CHOICES by Kate Buckley

2011-09-30T13:53:00.000-04:00

Family secrets, binge drinking, and teen pregnancy clash then erupt in Choices, a compelling coming-of-age journey for fifteen-year-old Kara MacNeil. A sophomore at an all-girls Catholic academy in Colorado, Kara finds herself crossing the line into womanhood far sooner than expected. Panic, fear, and confusion enclose her as she grapples, seemingly alone, with life-altering decisions. Facing a major confrontation with her conservative Catholic parents, Kara discovers her own inner strength and opens to allies that help her heal and move forward with confidence. Choices is the powerful story of a teenage girl who learns to think for herself, takes responsibility for her choices, and uncovers her solid sense of self, emerging from pain different yet strong and secure.

Description: The words in Choices were well chosen. I didn't feel overwhelmed with details or lost in the scene. Everything was set right to my preference, clean and simple. Some settings were a little vague, but I found it left more room for the story. I'd have to say for the story, it fit just right. (Score: 7.5/10)

Narrative: Kate Buckley chose first person point of view (POV) to tell the story of Kara MacNeill. This style tends to require quite a bit of narrative to move the story along. Inner thought and views are limited only to the main character. Despite a few minor issues, first POV works really well. The story itself is fast paced and very intense. I think it's a good break for the reader that the narrative is simple, concise and easy to read. Also, I think the way Choices is written widens the reader level, meaning younger, as well as older teens/adults can appreciate this book. (Score: 7.5/10)

Dialogue: I found the dialogue to be a little distracting. The main character Kara is fifteen and a sophomore, yet her language is a little young for today's teens, at least in my opinion. Some of the exchanges seem a little forced. And yet, I found I could overlook it because it was consistent with the voice of Kara. As a sheltered, protected Catholic schoolgirl, it kind of makes sense that the story feels innocent. (Score: 7/10)

Characterization: There's a moderate number of characters in Choices and some of them are a little less defined than others. Also, it's interesting to note that one character, rather significant to the resolution was introduced very late in the book. In real life, this actually happens, so though it goes against the "rules" of novels, I think it added to the realism of the story. As far as the main character, Kara, she was sympathetic to me as a reader. But as a writer, I wanted more. She did show excellent character growth, but something was missing. I'm not quite sure what that something is. (Score: 7/10)

Resolution: Kate Buckley stuck to an authentic, realistic ending that I adore. The growth of Kara was slow, well defined and then BAM, it all came together. The character changed, but the reader wasn't told what to think or how to feel. I found some predictability, but it was a comfort in the heavy content of the novel. Overall, I liked the resolution and how it left me feeling after I put the book down. (Score: 8.5/10)

I was nervous about reviewing this book, for a number of reasons. Mostly, I feared the fact that Choices was self-published. It's not that I'm prejudiced against it; I've just read some substandard books that could have been so much better if only edited more. BUT, when I did my research on Book Publishers Network and saw they offered editing services, I felt more confident. And I'm glad I reviewed this book. Kate Buckley tackles some very serious issues in Choices and does it well. I know that even as a married woman with two kids, I STILL blame myself for situations when I shouldn't. As a matter of fact, LOTS of people blame me for being "too sexy" or "asking" men to hit on me. But, that's our culture, I guess. And I'm thankful for this book, because it puts the truth out there-why girls and women feel pressured in so many ways. I'd recommend this book to anyone who has ever felt less than precious because she or he had to say no. Be prepared to feel, because Choices is heavy with emotions. I give this novel 3 out of 5 stars.

I Love It....

2011-09-25T21:59:00.000-04:00

It's one of those songs.

It meets all the requirements I have to include it on my playlist.

This song is familiar: I know it. I've lived it.

Instantly, I cranked it, because I had to. I loved it from the first word.

And then I was inspired. I can survive it, because I can sing the lyrics when I need to.

So what song is it? Mr. Know It All by Kelly Clarkson. And you can play it below.

Book Review: BROOKLYN BURNING by STEVE BREZENOFF

2011-09-19T14:38:00.002-04:00

Photo property of Lerner Publishing Group

When you’re sixteen and no one understands who you are, sometimes the only choice left is to run. If you’re lucky, you find a place that accepts you, no questions asked. And if you’re really lucky, that place has a drum set, a place to practice, and a place to sleep. For Kid, the streets of Greenpoint, Brooklyn, are that place. Over the course of two scorching summers, Kid falls hopelessly in love and then loses nearly everything and everyone worth caring about. But as summer draws to a close, Kid finally finds someone who can last beyond the sunset.

Description: I am not from Brooklyn, but I've been there once. That said, Steve Brezonff did an amazing job of putting me right in the heart of the borough without boring me. I loved his use of description all throughout Brooklyn Burning. It feels weird to say, but his description was conversational. What I mean: is I felt spoken to, part of the story, drawn in. Often description makes me stop and think to figure out what I'm supposed to know. But not in this book. I felt in the story right from the start. (Score 8.5/10)

Narrative: Brooklyn Burning was written from first person Point of View (POV). There's quite a large amount of narrative, which works really well for this story. Yet, my very favorite and most amazing aspect of the story is when the main character, Kid, has inner thoughts in SECOND person POV. At first, it's startling, but not in a bad way-it's attention grabbing. And it held me. But not only that, I felt hugged by it-meaning it gave the book a VERY intimate feeling. In ALL I've learned about writing, second person is difficult to use and generally frowned upon. BUT, Steve Brezenoff makes it work beautifully. If you are considering writing using second person POV, I recommend you take at look at this book for direction. (Score: 9/10)

Dialogue: When I think about conversation in Brooklyn Burning I realize I barely noticed it. The characters speaking to each other flowed in a natural and easy way. Steve Brezenoff's writing style is very conversational so the dialogue matched it well. I didn't feel as if I were an outsider looking in-I felt involved. I really think the use of second person POV added to that feeling. It also added to the mystery/tension of the story. Sorry, no spoilers here. You'll have to read it to see what I mean. (Score: 9/10)

Characterization: Brooklin Burning contains a cast of diverse characters. The main character, Kid, felt very real, down to earth and not at all stereotyped. Actually, I felt very free, as the reader, to apply my own interpretation of the characters and THAT is hard to find in literature. Kid clearly had issues but the story wasn't overtly "dark" or"sexual" and I loved the themes it enveloped. There was one point where I found myself confused, but that was close to the beginning. There are two characters: Jonny and Konny. The similarities in their names led me to believe, at first, this was a typo (it happens sometimes in Advanced Reader Copies/ARCs), but over time, I saw realized they were different people. It worked, but I really wished for a little more variety in name choices. Personalities, however, were a very different story. Each character was unique, multi-dimensional and real feeling. By the end, I felt I knew everyone and cared enough to be sad the book was ending. (Score: 8/10)

Resolution: I really liked the way Steve Brezenoff told Kid's story of Brooklyn Burning. The back story unfolded alongside the current events which led to a build up of tension and release as the resolution. And to be honest, I most definitely prefer reading this type of novel. It feels more real to life and less contrived. I also believe this time of resolution is the hardest to achieve because the writer only has reality on his side...and we ALL know, reality never really ends or resolves. S0-YES! I loved the resolution. (Score: 9/10)

One of the last things I'd ever want to do is spoil this book for the readers. I despise telling people what to think or how to feel. So, I'm going to make this section short and vague. Brooklyn Burning is a coming of age story about a teen on the streets of NYC. To be honest, I really didn't know what to expect when I started reading the ARC I received via NetGalley.com. But once I got started, I was pleasantly surprised. I read the book in one day. Brooklyn Burning, for me, was a little about self-discovery, love, friendship, trust, and finally self-acceptance. It has a component of romance, but I wouldn't call it a love story. It's so much more. And to categorize it as anything other than a very readable Young Adult Novel would go against, what I believe, the author would want. I'd rate this book 4 out of 5 stars.

Book Review: CALLIE by JESSICA LEE ANDERSON

2011-09-13T14:04:00.002-04:00

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Title:		Calli

Publisher:		Milkweed Editions

Pub Date:

09/13/2011

Author:		Jessica Lee Anderson

Category:		FICTION - ADULT: Literary

Calli has almost everything she could want in life—two loving moms, a good-looking boyfriend, and a best friend who has always been there for support. An only child, Calli is excited when her parents announce that they want to foster a girl her own age. But Cherish is not at all what Calli expected. Cherish lies, steals, kisses Calli’s boyfriend, and seems to get away with just about everything. Tired of being pushed around and determined to get even, Calli decides to take matters into her own hands. But her plan for revenge goes horribly awry. Calli ends up on the wrong side of her moms, her boyfriend, and even her best friend, while she wrestles with her guilt. She is desperate for a chance to make amends, but what if Calli doesn’t get another chance to say she’s sorry?

Description: There's not a ton of description in Calli, so there's not a lot to say. Scenes are set well. I know what I needed to know to get by. And details didn't overwhelm or bore me. For me, as a reader, if I don't notice description, then it's done well. (Score: 6/10)

Narrative: Jessica Lee Anderson wrote Calli's story in first person, so the tale is told right from inside her head. There's a lot of narrative. Sometimes too much, I think. I really liked knowing the facts revealed in this fashion, but I thought it lacked a little in the creativity department. Some areas were a little dry and drawn out. Overall, though, I enjoyed the concept of the novel. (Score: 5/10)

Dialogue: Again, here, I was a little disappointed. Most of the time, the dialogue was rather predictable. It lacked the flair that I think makes Young Adult Authors really stand out. It wasn't bad or annoying, so that's good. All in all, the dialogue in Calli just sort of was-if you know what I mean. (Score: 5/10)

Characterization: (Now I'm starting to feel bad about writing this review, but hang in there, there are some redeeming qualities I'll describe later.) My blunt and honest truth is that the characters were not multi-dimensional the way I like them. They didn't pop off the page and pull me into the book. Yes, each character was unique and definitely an individual within the story, but there was nothing that rose them above the general population. (Score: 4/10)

Resolution: Well, here I can honestly say this is a resolution that surprised me. And that's hard to do. There wasn't a far fetched twist or a predictable ending. The book wrapped up and ended. I liked that. There were no cliff hangers or spoilers. (Score: 6/10)

Calli overall was a book I liked, but didn't love. I'm disappointed because I really, really wanted to love it. The concept was sort of interesting to me: two moms and a teen with a foster sister. What a great idea! But, overall, I felt the novel really lacked the magic it needed to make me fall in love with it. On the plus side, I didn't hate it. I think maybe it could be enjoyed by many. I'd especially recommend it to the younger side of YA or readers who aren't as character driven as I am. The story itself is clean cut with none of the "darkness" critics keep talking about. It simple and easy to follow with some real thought provoking pieces to it. Overall, I'd rate this book: 2.5 out of 5 stars.

I HAVE A BOOK DEAL

2011-08-31T09:19:00.000-04:00

I've teased long enough. Here's the deal: in a partnership with Springfield Tornado and AuthorMikeInk, I will be writing the stories of survival from the Springfield Tornado.

The best part?? A portion of the proceeds will go toward disaster relief.

The founder of the Facebook Community page and website Springfield Tornado has devoted much of his free time to this project since the tornado happened. With a strong sense of passion, he knows that survivors will continue to need help long after standard funds run out. And that's where his soon-to-be-foundation comes in.

This project speaks to two of my biggest passions: helping people and writing.

So, in the coming days, weeks, months share in this time of my life. And please join the Springfield Tornado Website and LIKE Springfield Tornado Facebook Community Page for more up to date information.

A Hint...

2011-08-29T12:02:00.000-04:00

I have a project brewing in the background. The time is not right for me to spread the word. But when I can, I will.

In the meantime, enjoy the silliness of my playlist.

Forget the Seatbelt...We're Gonna Need a Five Point Harness

2011-08-25T13:46:00.000-04:00

This weekend, my dear friend Sera Rivers embarked on a VERY amazing project.

This week, I found mine. Details to follow, as soon as I confirm and have permission. But I can say it incorporates three of my biggest passions: writing, nursing and helping others.

Who knows where our paths will lead us?

But I have a feeling: "We're taking over...get used to it."

(Note: I do NOT think of Ke$ha as a role model. But I LOVE this song!!)

Creativity and My Elusive Muse

2011-08-19T01:24:00.000-04:00

TIME WARP
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It's 1:04 AM. 0104 hours if you want to use military time.

Most people are sleeping.

My whole family is.

I should be, too. But my creativity is alive and kicking right now.

I need to be up early.

Why?

Because that's how the world functions. You know: "The early bird gets the worm." or "Early to bed, early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise." And in order to be productive, I should go to bed at night and get up early in the morning and like it.

But, see....the thing is...I DON'T.

I've tried, many times in fact, to function on a "normal" schedule. And I thought certain things would force the change. But, alas, it has not.

And nights like tonight-when my creative mind is bursting with thoughts and ideas, I feel really frustrated. I think "Damn you muse! Why are you bothering me now?"

And then I smile. Because no one is awake to judge me. My phone isn't going to ring. And my kids do not need to be fed. Yeah, I might be tired tomorrow, but right now is ALL MINE.

MOON AND SKY
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The crickets are chirping. The moon is high in the sky.

And I need to write.

So, what could be wrong with that?

Nothing, I say. Nothing at all.

So, good night world. My muse and I have some creating to do!

I've Got Work to Do

2011-08-12T13:54:00.000-04:00

"I just want to be free, I just want to be me
And I want lots of friends that invite me to their parties
I don't wanna change,
And I don't wanna be ashamed
I'm the spirit of my Hair
It's all the glory that I bare
I am my Hair!"

THIS is my HAIR, but it's not really me. I have work to do before it can be free.

"I’ve had enough
This is my prayer
That I’ll die living just as free as my hair"

Another Lesson from My Kids

2011-08-08T11:50:00.000-04:00

One of the greatest gifts of parenthood (for me) is learning how to live again. And ideally, learning how to do it the RIGHT way.

I have two kids. I'd describe both of them half me-half the husband: a cool mix of the best of us.

We call ourselves TEAM K. See? The picture below? We're making the letter K. The dog is the underscore.

Okay-not really. Ally the dog just wouldn't get out of the way. But still...we had fun.

BOTH of my kids are confident, comfortable in their skins and assertive of their needs. When I think back to when I was their ages, I'm pretty sure I was too.

So when did I lose it? Because I'm it's been awhile since I really, really felt comfortable doing almost ANYTHING.

Okay, okay-I know what SOME of you would say, but it's mostly a front or an honest to God effort and later an obsession if I speak up for myself.

WHY?

I think I found the answer...well, a piece of the bigger puzzle anyway AND something for me to think about. I've been doing psychology research to help with character building in my novel. And on Psychology Today's website I found a great article on being assertive. This paragraph really is what sucked me in:

"For two decades, Charles Darwin suffered crippling anxiety whenever he so much as imagined publishing his theory of natural selection. The quiet naturalist agonized about how his true beliefs on speciation would affect his standing among his Victorian peers and super pious wife: "It is like confessing a murder," he wrote to a friend. Only when the young scientist Alfred Russel Wallace nipped at his heels with a nearly identical theory did Darwin set aside his work on barnacles and publish On the Origin of Species, securing his place in history with the slenderest of leads." -The Right Way to Rock the Boat by Nando Pelusi

WAIT! DARWIN WAS SCARED TO PUBLISH HIS THOUGHTS?? Oh, I can relate! And right now, I'd love to rant about the lack of emotional evolution our species has suffered-but I won't. I'll save that for another time.

Anyway, at the end of the article, I took the quiz. Many of my answers were-well, I USED to do that, but now-NO WAY! And guess what? I failed in the assertiveness department.

Sorry Darwin...I haven't only NOT evolved. I've REGRESSED. But can I even say that? My kids are exactly what I want to be. And I'm the freakin' grown up! What the heck?

So, I guess it's more self exploration for me. Or maybe I could take some lessons from my kids. After all, we are TEAM K and in our house-everyone gets the chance to shine.

Maybe I See What I Want to See....

2011-08-04T14:28:00.000-04:00

I try to be a realist-always. Sometimes I sugar coat my words or cloak them in disguise because I'm sooo afraid of being wrong.

But not this time.

Not now.

I'm stating my one truth with the acknowledgement that maybe I see what I want to see...but in the end, I'm usually right.

Okay.Here goes:REALISTIC YOUNG ADULT FICTION IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE!

I hear rumblings on Twitter-editors/agents seeking emotional realistic books. I see such type novels receiving big time awards. And I'm putting it all together. Maybe I need to believe this because my novel is realistic. (Let's face it-I need something to keep me going.) But in all honesty, I feel it in my gut. My instinct is
screaming that the time has come for real, hard-core stories for teens.

And then I see a tweet by Judy Blume:

@judyblumeJudy Blume

Screened Tiger Eyes yesterday in LA. Exciting to see it with audience. Not a dry eye in house. Not schmaltzy, but emotional.

Original Cover from website Jezebel

Holy FREAKING CRAP! If this movie does well it COULD change everything in the Young Adult literary world....if JUDY BLUME revives her timeless stories into a modern day movie, then the possiblities are endless. (If you can't already tell, she's one of my heroes-always has been and always will be.)

Maybe I'm overreacting...being too emotionally intense as usual. But right now, I do NOT care. Judy Blume is the epitome of everything I strive to be. And if she starts gaining popularity with this generation, I am SO following her lead!!

Book Review: IN TROUBLE by ELLEN LEVINE

2011-08-03T10:39:00.000-04:00

Photo Property of Lerner Publishing

Title:

In Trouble

Publisher: Lerner Publishing Group

Imprint:

Carolrhoda Lab

Pub Date:

09/01/2011

Author:

Ellen Levine

Jamie and Elaine have been best friends forever, and now they’re finally juniors in high school. Elaine has a steady boyfriend, and Jamie could have one—if she'd just open her eyes and see Paul. But Jamie has a bigger problem to worry about. Then Elaine gets "in trouble"—something they thought only happened to "other" girls. Are there any good choices for a girl in trouble?

In Trouble is a novel born of author Ellen Levine’s interviews with women who came of age in the late 1950s and early 1960s, including those who knew what it was like to be a teen facing a horrible choice. In the decades before Roe v. Wade, a young woman "in trouble" had very few options—and all of them meant shame, isolation, and maybe much worse. Jamie and Elaine's stories are just two among the thousands of stories of teenagers facing unplanned pregnancies.

Description: Confession: I read In Trouble in one sitting. I couldn't put it down. Ellen Levine had me captivated from the start. The description was light, interesting and never distracting. Actually, I barely noticed it and felt as if I knew everything intuitively. And to me, that's great description. It flowed but didn't flood. (Score: 9/10)

Narrative: I found Ellen Levine's style of narrative clean and simple. A lot of the story comes from within Jamie-which lends very well to the intimacy of the book. The tension and passion are both clear to me as a reader and inspiring as a writer. There's a lot of emotion packed into what felt like a very short novel. (Score: 9/10)

Dialogue: Unfortunately, dialogue was not one one of my favorites for In Trouble. A lot of it felt predictable and dry. I liked how it helped the story unfold, but in some ways it felt relied upon a little too much for me. Now the inner dialogue of Jamie, however, is different. The book starts with it and carries it to the end. For me, that was the grabber. (Score: 6/10)

Characterization: As much as I loved the book, I felt characterization lacked a little too. Though I could tell everyone apart, they all sort of felt, well...simple. But it did fit the type of story, so overall it worked. Honestly, I think I'd have liked to know Grandma a little more-she seemed feisty and smart. In the end, the characters stayed true to themselves and the time setting. (Score: 7/10)

Resolution: The ending of the book was perfect for my tastes. A lot of things happened, leading to high emotions and an ending that satisfied. But most of all, I LOVED the Author's Note at the end. I'm a true-blue back story girl and Ellen Levine's thoughts are clearly heartfelt. It's hard for writers to expose themselves, especially with hot topics like abortion. But she took the time to explain to her readers where her inspiration came from. And she makes some very valid points. One in particular: "Although the historical setting is different, the pressures on young women remain the same". AMEN to that I say. (Score 9/10)

My friend and fellow NetGalley user, Sera Rivers suggested I review In Trouble. I thanked her a bunch of times. As a woman, a mother of a daughter, a nurse and writer, this book moved me. As I said above, I read it in one sitting-a matter of hours. And yes, I cried. I cheered. I felt inspired. It's the type of book that should be read in schools and discussed at length. (Though I have no doubt it'll be banned.) History need not repeat itself. We should, as women, be supporting each other-even if we don't agree. I really hope this book makes it onto at least a few required reading lists for young adults 13-14 years and older. I know it's on mine forever. Though I didn't love everything about how the book was crafted, I still rate it 3.5 out of 5 stars.

Where Did I Put My Rose Colored Glasses?

2011-07-29T11:16:00.000-04:00

I hit a really big brick wall this year in my day job. It's happened before, but never like this. In fact, I nearly walked out-never to return again. But, instead of quitting, I took some time off. Metaphorically speaking, I branched out and tried a "new flavor of ice cream".

And it helped. I felt so much relief from the pressures I'd placed on myself. I became stronger, more aware of who I was and what I needed to be. And I returned without my rose colored glasses. UH-big mistake!

I'm still reeling from the effects of opening myself up like that.

You see-I guess I thought I could easily override stereotypes, be a non-conformist type. I have ideas, thoughts and beliefs that I know to be true. And then, I get slammed with sexist remarks from the moment I walk in the door. I KNOW they were all in fun and actually I laughed-because the situation really was funny. (And this particular guy ALWAYS makes off colored statements-it's part of his persona. Not that it's okay, because essentially he's in a position of power-but it is what it is-and he's so DAMN lovable that it's impossible to get mad at him for real. Not to mention that professionally he's among the best at what he does.)

But still I got thinking....no wonder I feel so frustrated. There's a lot of truth in joking and in assumptions people make. And I used to let stuff like that hold me back.

"But I will hold on hope

And I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again"

-Mumford and Sons

I AM however, desperately searching again for my rose colored glasses. I think I'll need them to survive just a little longer-at least until I've found more solid ground stand on. But I'm pretty sure, with my personality, I'm gonna need them forever.

"Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind"

-Mumford and Sons

Because I'm NOT going to conform. EVER. And I can't realistically expect others to understand. But I can learn to deal with it.

"So make your siren's call

And sing all you want

I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now

And I need to know how

To live my life as it's meant to be"

-Mumford and Sons

"So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears"

-Mumford And Sons

Book Review: Être the Cow by Sean Kenniff

2011-07-22T20:09:00.000-04:00

From the website: Être the Cow

ÊTRE THE COW is a tender and thought-provoking tale about a pasture bull, named Être, who is simple but self-aware. Powerless over his circumstances, Être struggles to accept the everyday indignity and brutal insignificance of his cow life at Gorwell Farm. Stranded in a world where the line between disgrace and dignity is drawn by a pasture fence, Être searches for understanding among the broads, bulls and calves on the pasture, but finds none. The grasses thin as the seasons pass, the cows hunger, and Être grows desperate. He is the only cow truly starving. Être must challenge fate in order to change his destiny.

In French the word “être” means “to be” or “to exist.” Être’s struggle is a very human one. It is a search for meaning and significance in an uncertain world, and a battle for a better life. You will cheer. You will cry.

You will read ÊTRE THE COW over and over again—then share its message.

Characterization:

I have to admit, the concept behind this book is what really grabbed my attention. The main character, Être is a cow. How cool is that? I really wanted to see how an author could make a cow interesting. Well...Sean Kenniff did an outstanding job, especially because Être is the only cow in the pasture who is personified. I was prepared for all the animals to have humanistic characteristics-sort of like Charlotte's Web, but they DIDN'T. I found Être to be rather dynamic and interesting, in his own way. He may not be very smart, but he sure is insightful. His growth is clear, well defined-and that's exactly a style I want to learn from. (Score: 9/10)

Dialogue: Okay-dialogue is another interesting aspect of this story because Être can think like a person but not talk like one-so he can't really have a conversation (except in his own head with himself). So many writers rely on dialogue to convey information. But that's not a tool Sean Kenniff could reliably utilize. And often, inner dialogue gets boring, but not in this case. Être contemplates some really deep thoughts. The dialogue that does occur between humans is well placed and useful. (Score: 9/10)

Narrative: Sean Kenniff's writing style is very concise and easy to read. I got lost in his words and felt like I was one among many on the pasture. Not once did I get lost or bored or distracted. And honestly, I couldn't put the book down. Être the Cow is, as described above, a book I'll read more than once. (Score: 9/10)

Description: Since I'm not a description lover, this book appealed to me. There was just enough to convey the proper info but not in an overbearing way. I got the sense of what Être was seeing, hearing and tasting as a cow-and I loved it. (Score: 9/10)

Resolution: As I read Être the Cow, I was curious as to how it could possibly end. To avoid a spoiler, all I'm going to say is that I was shocked-almost mortified. I found it a little excessive for my tastes, but it really drove the point home for me. And isn't that why we read? To be forced to think? Well, that's why I read, anyway. And the startling ending really did make me see the world in a slightly different way.

I loved Être the Cow. It was everything I'd heard it was. I was moved by Être's outlook and could relate to his thinking-who hasn't felt trapped and desperate to escape? Who hasn't look around at others and wondered what they're thinking. Even with people I can converse with, I sometimes feel more confused than centered. I, too, feel the desire to inspire only to be frustrated when others don't respond. And to me, that's the whole point of the story. Interestingly enough, the book also comes with a warning-the shocking part of the resolution I referred to. Overall, I think this is a great story for so many people-from young adult on- to read. I'd rate this book 4 out of 5 stars.

Raising My Glass! Join me?

2011-07-12T17:48:00.000-04:00

In January, I received an amazing letter full of editorial recommendations on my first novel Just A Girl. Now finally, two conferences, two workshops and six months later (along with a lot of pretty bad mood swings) I HAVE FINISHED THE REWRITE!!

Tomorrow, I will read the changes from start to finish. But today, I'm taking a moment to celebrate.

Writing Research

2011-07-06T10:53:00.000-04:00

I've reached that revision point in my novel where I really need to make it WOW. The characters are set up. The story is there. And I understand the plot.

I've gone from 80k to 60k and now down to 42k words.

I was nervous, until I realized, (thanks to workshops, conferences and critiques), how important Psychology is to writing.

So, I've been doing my research-reading non-fiction books on the human condition.

As I create, my characters act in a certain way, therefore the story moves forward and a plot unfolds.

But as I look outside my fiction and into my real life, I see it's not all that different. And I can apply my research to all my interactions.

Oh, if only I could write my own life the way I do for my characters. But it's not that easy. I can't control others. I don't even think I want to (well......). So, as I navigate this crazy world, I guess I'll enjoy my superb cast without trying to force the plot.

HEY REBECCA ROSE- does that make me a real life panster???

Yes, I'm a Bad Kid Baby

2011-07-03T18:25:00.001-04:00

Did Lady Gaga write this song for me? Insecure? Heart is pure? Yes-I am designated as a BAD KID baby!
Consider me pumping my fist RIGHT NOW!! :)

What I Didn't Know

2011-06-29T13:29:00.000-04:00

Friendships are always something I've taken very seriously, maybe too seriously. That's really why I started writing. I wanted to figure out a few things about me. What I didn't know, was that my friendships show me most of what I need to learn. And those who truly understand me are rare. And that's okay. So, below, I've included a recent interview. Via my website, The Aha Moment Tour contacted me, asking if I would participate. I dragged Sera Rivers along, since, well...she's a friend who GETS me and we were spending the whole week together at a workshop. Hope you enjoy! And if you vote on the website, it COULD be made into a commercial!

And if you were wondering...YES! I did look at her like that when I met her! :)

Book Reviewer Angst

2011-06-27T22:01:00.001-04:00

OLD BOOKS
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I learned to read at four years old, thanks to my big sister.

And I still love to read.

Until I started writing, I finished a book, no matter how much I hated it.

And now, I'm reviewing books.

Not all books are great. Some aren't even good.

Up until this point, I've chosen NOT to review them, but I can't realistically keep doing that. I want to, but I also know I need to be honest to be credible.

But it HURTS!!

As a writer, I know how much work goes into every book. Story and characters are part of the heart and soul of the writer. So, how do I say it's terrible when I feel really bad about it?

Any suggestions would be helpful. I've been reading other blogs and have some ideas-tact, grace and honesty is what I've seen. I plan to use all three and hope for the best.

How have you faced writing a negative review?

Inspired by The Glen

2011-06-23T13:57:00.000-04:00

Last week I immersed myself in the world of writing. I didn't have to go far. Lucky for me, The Glen East Workshop came to Mount Holyoke College in South Hadley, Ma-practically my own back yard.

Every morning, we had a three hour workshop on Young Adult Fiction-where we critiqued each other's manuscripts with the one and only Sara Zarr. OH YEAH!!

And now, I'm back to reality. But as I return, I'm integrating one small piece at a time. So, I'm writing a letter to my main character.

Dear Loredonna,

As I your writer, I think you should know how frustrated I am. Please don't take it personally. You're growing and so am I. You are making me crazy!! One minute the words from you flow so easily and the next I feel I'm creating only crap. I am aware this is normal, thanks to my writer friends, but I'd really appreciate it if you'd cooperate. So, here's a song dedicated to you that really explains what I'm feeling:

Sincerely,

Lorettajo Kapinos, the author of your life

Book Review: SPEAK by LAURIE HALSE ANDERSON

2011-06-21T19:28:00.000-04:00

Picture from Penguin.com

Penguin Group

ISBN 9780142407325

224 pages

Apr 2006

14 - AND UP years

Melinda Sordino busted an end-of-summer party by calling the cops. Now her old friends won’t talk to her, and people she doesn’t even know hate her from a distance. The safest place to be is alone, inside her own head. But even that’s not safe. Because there’s something she’s trying not to think about, something about the night of the party that, if she let it in, would blow her carefully

constructed disguise to smithereens. And then she would have to speak the truth. This extraordinary first novel has captured the imaginations of teenagers and adults across the country.

Description: Speak is told from the point of view (POV) of a girl starting high school: Melinda Sordino. Using first person POV means the narrator has to provide all the details of description. In all the reading I've done, I've found it amazing at how many authors can accomplish this seamlessly. Laurie Halse Anderson is one such author. Not only do I see what Melinda sees, but I can feel it, taste it, hear it and I don't feel overwhelmed with extra stuff. I particularly love the way Melinda uses art to talk in context of life and learning. It was a great way to really showcase all that was going on inside her head. And though this book was first published in 1999, in no way did it feel dated. (Score: 10/10)

Narrative: Laurie Halse Anderson uses a form of narrative I admire. The paragraphs are short and spaced apart. This setup alone makes me subconsciously feel more in tune with the personality of the story and the character. But the words themselves come straight from the head of Melinda. It's authentic with a voice that stayed with me long after I finished the book. And miraculously, she covers an entire school year without ever letting the story lag or move too fast. (Score: 10/10)

Dialogue: I'm not quite sure how she did this, but the author used a rather unique form of dialogue that I fell in love with. Instead of the typical layout, much of the dialogue was in a scripted format. This too added to the feeling in the book. I imagine it was difficult to write this way because the author loses the ability to communicate body language. Her words had to speak for themselves. And the did, in a big way. Not all the dialogue was done this way, some was buried in with narrative, but it kept it interesting. (Score; 10/10)

Characterization: Speak's characters were all engaging and multi-dimensional. I admire the way Laurie Halse Anderson was able to make Melinda troubled without being pathetic or whiny. She was real and in pain, but at the same time strong. That's really hard to do! I looked for stereotypes, just because I always do, and really found none. There are generalizations, yes, but I think that's so true in any book-but they didn't feel forced or faked. I also really liked the way characters came in and out of Melinda's life-this made it feel more real to me. (Score: 10/10)

Resolution: My favorite aspect of realistic fiction is the resolution. Often, the climax is so subtle that I barely notice it's coming...or maybe I don't want to admit it. But Speak was like that. It held conflicts and triumphs throughout while at the same time leading the reader down a road of growth and understanding. Melinda's growth is sudden, which makes this fictional story so very believable. The ending was unique and interesting. I was sad for it to end, but at least I know Laurie Halse Anderson has written more books to enjoy. (Score: 10/10)

This book is an important read. Not only is it well written, but the main topic-the unspoken teen- is very relevant to today's society. Too often, teens (and even adults) feel they can't really say what they need to. Our world places way too many expectations and restrictions on what is appropriate to talk about. But some things shouldn't be kept silent. How many girls are shamed into silence every day? Who makes that okay? I also loved how Melinda was "punished" for bad grades. I mean, hello?? That's a red flag of distress and, again, too often, it's covered up with blame and excuses. Don't get me wrong, I understand why this happens. People don't know how to deal with such problems. So, where do we begin learning? With books such as Speak. The topic is on the table, now discuss. Rating: 5 out of 5 stars.

The Harsh Reality: Darkness is NOT Visible Enough

2011-06-11T14:11:00.000-04:00

Last week's fury at the Wall Street Journal Book Review "Darkness Too Visible" was all over Twitter. The hashtag #YASAVES is still active. (For those of you not familiar with a Twitter hashtag, it's a way to tag your post to be included in an ongoing conversation.) It's apparent that those involved in Young Adult Literature are passionate about their work.

For months I've been following Young Adult Authors Against Bullying on Facebook and waiting anxiously for the release of the book Dear Bully, due out in fall of 2011. This is an anthology, edited by Young Adult Authors Megan Kelly Hall and Carrie Jones is a compilation of bullying stories by well known authors. It was born of passion to help teens and address the issue of bullying. While on that group page the other day, I found an article that tore through my soul. I knew I had to write about it.

Daniel Mendez, a sophomore in high school, committed suicide in May 2009. His parents filed suit against four teens who allegedly bullied him. Now, I'm not going to comment on the law suit but what really moved me was the publication of Daniel's letters to his psychiatrist and friends. As I read it, I thought, FINALLY a REAL look at what people think when they believe death is the only answer.

It took me two days to read the whole letter.

I've lived what he wrote. And his words threw me right back there.

How many others can relate? I'd say: more than most.

How many can't even think about that kind of pain and suffering? I'd say: TOO MANY.

But in order to save lives and help others, we need to talk about this. We need to address what is truly driving human beings to end their own lives or to even THINK about it. And that's where Young Adult Literature comes in. Starting a difficult conversation with a teen (or anyone for that matter) can be easier with a catalyst. Great books have always been amazing tools to do just that.

So, here again, I disagree with Meghan Cox Gurdon and her thoughts about YA books. Darkness can't be visible enough. It's time we turn the light on. We need to face reality and rarely does it involve sunshine or rainbows.

Book Review: PARROTFISH by ELLEN WITTLINGER

2011-06-07T13:29:00.000-04:00

Property of Simon & Schuster

Simon & Schuster Children's Publishing, July 2007

Hardcover, 304 pages

ISBN-10: 1416916229

ISBN-13: 9781416916222

Grades: 7 and up

When Angela cuts off her hair, changes her name to Grady, and begins to live as a boy, her family and friends have trouble accepting the change.

Description: Ellen Wittlinger's style of writing is easy to read. Her descriptions are short, vivid and worked so well in, one can barely tell they are there. I love they way everything moves the story along. There no distractions, no boring parts and nothing I wanted to skip. Every detail mattered. (Score: 10/10)

Narrative: Parrotfish is one of those books that place you directly in the main character's head. Everything Grady sees, hears and feels is conveyed to the reader in a heartfelt way. Some parts of the book contain quite a bit of narrative but it envelops the reader. (Score: 10/10)

Dialogue: I am in love with Grady's voice. The character is so grounded that I felt calmer when he spoke, even during times of high emotion. To be able to write about one feeling and evoke another in the reader takes some amazing talent. It's no wonder Ellen Wittlinger has won awards. Her writing style is so engaging that the whole book spoke to me. (Score:10/10)

Characterization: My favorite part of reading Parrotfish was getting to know the characters. Everyone is different yet so balanced in the story. It was amazing to me how the main character grew but I believe everyone else grew so much more. In learning the craft, I've struggled with showing the main character's growth, but Ellen was able to make it happen even in the secondary characters. Pretty amazing, I have to say. (Score: 10/10)

Resolution: I found the climax and resolution very interesting. I couldn't predict this ending, yet I doubt it's plausibility a little. (But then again, I don't come from the same type of family Grady does.) This book left me with chills and a sense of calm yearning. I don't need more to this story, but I want it. The ending was very complete, yet open the way I like it. There's room for more, yet it's so very satisfying and inspiring. (Score: 10/10)

My twenty one year old niece recommended I read this book. Before this, I'd never heard of Ellen Wittlinger. What interested me most was that she lives in in my area of the world. So, I followed her on Facebook. And then groupie stalked her at New England Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators (NECBWI) mostly for my niece and dear friend Cybele.

Cybele, Ellen Wittlinger, Lorettajo at NESCBWI regional conference.

Now if I'd KNOWN Ellen was a Printz Honor Award Winner I probably would have been too scared to approach her, but, alas, I did and found out she is a super, amazingly nice person. I hadn't yet read her books, so I felt kinda goofy, but now I can make up for it with this review. :)

Anyway, Parrotfish is the type of book I'd recommend to anyone person trying to break free from labels and stereotypes. There's a lot of discussion involving that topic. Yes, the main character has changed gender, but the book is really about MORE than that. It's about individuality, self-acceptance and well, let's face it, helping others accept who YOU really are. I'm not gay or in confusion about my gender. But I struggle EVERYDAY with being comfortable in my own skin. I've tried to be "good" and fit the stereotype that a woman should, and it's made me crazy again and again. Reading Grady's story inspired me to keep trying. Be myself and love it. So, if you're in constant battle with yourself and others around you, read Parrotfish. Grady will inspire you to be more of the self you should be. Rating: 5 out of 5 stars.

A Nurse/Mom/Writer's Perspective on WSJ's Review: Darkness Too Visible

2011-06-06T19:37:00.000-04:00

Irony of ironies....I was dreaming big in NYC when I read Laurie Halse Anderson's Blog regarding Meghan Cox Gurdon's article on the content of teen novels: Darkness Too Visible.

Of course, I have to contribute my unique perspective. I am an ER Nurse, certified to teach Emergency Nursing Pediatric Care. I am a Mother of a 12 year old boy and 8 year old girl. I am a Writer of realistic Young Adult Novels. And I'm fascinated with human growth and development and try to apply it to every corner of my life. "Darkness Too Visible" jabbed right at my heart. Specifically this quote:

"Yet it is also possible—indeed, likely—that books focusing on pathologies help normalize them and, in the case of self-harm, may even spread their plausibility and likelihood to young people who might otherwise never have imagined such extreme measures. Self-destructive adolescent behaviors are observably infectious and have periods of vogue. That is not to discount the real suffering that some young people endure; it is an argument for taking care."

I say: YES! Please normalize these behaviors-so no one has to feel alone or freaky for having unhealthy coping skills. Teens in crisis perform these self harming behaviors (cutting, binging/purging, drinking, etc) LONG before they seek out books that might make them "imagine such extreme measures". These brave authors provide a means to talk about it and almost all of them do so with great care. And for that, I applaud them.

And that leads to my other pet peeve belief about teens. This will be a shocker, I know, but TEENS ARE CAPABLE OF MAKING UP THEIR OWN MINDS. Developmentally, they have outgrown concrete thinking which means they can now reason based on information provided. See Jean Piaget's theory of development for more. They can and do think critically. True, they do not yet have life experience to guide them, but that's where books written by adults comes into play. Well written Young Adult Novels provide insight in a way few other forms of media can. They tell a story. Teens have the ability to apply that story to their own life or not.

Great books make all my jobs easier. As a nurse-it's a lifeline for me to offer when I see kids in crisis. I can say "You're not alone. See?" As a mom, I can open a conversation about what I just read. And trust me-they always ask what I'm reading and why. And in return, ask their thoughts about the topic. As a writer, I have mentors, a guide to follow. These pioneers are clearing the way for me to also share my story.

Do I want my kids to know that rape, violence and brutality exist? Of course not. But in order for them to avoid it, I need to be real, with both myself and them-at the right time.

Is rating books a good idea, as suggested in the article? As a mom, I'd probably say yes. To be honest, I rely on those ratings for TV, movies, music and video games. Publishers do a great job of assigning age ranges most of the time. But do parents know how to use them properly?

As my kids age, I'm learning. I try to read every book for content before my 12 year old to make sure it's appropriate. And if it's not, I tell him why. He can still choose to read it, but we will at some point have a discussion about it.

In the end, I'd like to say that good writing should stir up controversy, should push the envelope. I'm tired of teen issues shrouded under clouds of fantasy, goth or horror. Teen problems exist, always have and always will. We owe it to our kids to talk about it for real. Otherwise, mistakes will do nothing more than repeat themselves for generations to come.

I Speak in Code

2011-06-01T16:34:00.000-04:00

"In the most Biblical sense,
I am beyond repentance
Fame hooker, prostitute wench vomits her mind
But in the cultural sense
I just speak in future tense
Judas kiss me if offensed,
Or wear ear condom next time..."

"I wanna love you,
But something's pulling me away from you
Jesus is my virtue,
And Judas is the demon I cling to ..."

This blog is, in fact, a cryptic message....but that's just me, having fun with the human mind. I am, after all, a writer. My job is to entertain and leave words open to interpretation. There's a hazard in this, but I'm going to have to get used to it. Assumptions will be made about me. Reviews will be written. I guess this is as good as anyway to prepare myself.

Crisis or Quest....

2011-05-24T10:42:00.001-04:00

My Inspiration for The Quest

I recently had a friend ask me, "Are you going through a midlife crisis?"

I let the question linger in my head for a long time.

And then, thanks to my friend Sera Rivers (she writes a blog for them) I stumbled across a Psychology Today article:
"What a Female Mid-Life Crisis Looks Like".

I read it. Bookmarked it (on my phone!) and read it a thousand times.

Now, the thing is, I'm YOUNG-no where near mid-life...at least I hope not. I mean this stuff doesn't usually happen until someone's in their forties, right? (And shush, you people who know my real age! I'm NOT THAT CLOSE!!)

But, I started early, according to modern timelines: college right out of high school; marriage, child and career right out of college. Yeah, I moved fast in my twenties, making gains most adults today won't even consider until closer to thirty. So, I guess it makes sense that I'd need to re-eval my life earlier than most.

In truth, it started about the time my father died. July 13, 2004. He was only 61. I had just turned 30-an age I dreaded most of my twenties.

Another big turn came four years later when my youngest started school. Suddenly, I was alone for hours at a time, with absolutely no direction. I figured I'd find my way eventually, but I didn't-until last year.

All this time, I'd been writing. I knew it was going to take me somewhere. But in my mind, I was wasting time, producing something that was a total "what if." Then, my attitude shifted via life events: my trip to Haiti and multiple writer's conferences to name a few.

I began seeking change in earnest. I explored opportunities that had potential to take me somewhere. Some did, some didn't. I tried on different roles and discarded parts of myself I no longer needed.

I started a QUEST for a new, better me.

The CRISIS part was the reaction from everyone around me-friends, family, etc.

Today, I'm nowhere near complete. I'm still QUESTING, creating CRISIS along the way. But, that's who I am, I guess: a fire-starter, a rabble rouser, and a trouble maker. I can't be happy being anything less. No, I take that back! I WON'T be happy with anything less.

Book Review: BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I'LL BE DEAD by JULIE ANN PETERS

2011-05-22T21:58:00.000-04:00

By the Time You Read This, I’ll Be Dead
Winter 2010

Hyperion * DBG
ISBN 978-142311618-9

Ages: 14 and up

Daelyn’s been the victim of bullying throughout her life and now she’s simply counting down the days until she can commit her final act on Earth. It’s destiny that she finds a Web site to help her in her quest. She has the motive, the means, and the determination. Then she meets this boy, Santana, who makes her examine her choice of death over life. But is he too late to save her? And is she too damaged to save him?

Description: Julie Ann Peters' style of description is so amazing that I didn't even notice it as I read. I got lost in her words, wrapped up in emotion and found myself just knowing things. To me, that's amazing and I hope to one day be THAT good at writing. Immediately, I felt the inside of Daelyn's house, the school and the bench that came to mean so much. No time of mine was lost or wasted trying to figure out who, what, where or why. (Score: 10/10)

Narrative: The structure of this book is unique. Daelyn can't/won't speak and the premise sets the book up right away. And I love the way internet features are worked in as part of the narrative. (Recently, at a conference, I was part of a discussion about technology in YA. By The Time You Read This is a great example of how to make current technology TIMELESS.) Julie Ann Peters really takes the reader through the story using so many different types of narrative. I learned a lot about narrative style while at the same time truly enjoying the reading experience. (Score: 10/10)

Dialogue: As I said above, Daelyn can't/won't talk. And technology is involved. So HOW does Julie Ann Peters maintain decent dialogue when the main character is mute? Well, let me tell you...that's part of the POWER of this novel. Sometimes, inner thoughts can be overdone or boring-the author is telling you what to think (and that makes me crazy!). In By The Time You Read This, it's absolutely necessary. The reader gets to know EXACTLY what Daelyn as thinking. But the best part? It's still showing not telling. And I think it's pure genius. Finally, readers have been brought directly into the world of suicidal thoughts without a whiny main character. (Score: 10/10)

Characterization: The cast in By The Time You Read This, is very small. It grows throughout the novel and to me that itself is a poetic gesture. It added to the feeling the novel stirred within me (and I didn't realize that until I sat down to write this review). I felt I knew each character, but wasn't emotionally attached or distracted by any one character. (Score: 10/10)

Resolution: Okay, here is where I get really excited (or disappointed-it depends on the book) about realistic fiction. I can not stand contrived endings. The layout of By The Time You Read This set up the reader to a high level of anticipation and then slowly closed out, leaving the TRUE ending up for discussion. It flowed naturally, beautifully-POWERFULLY. And I loved it! I plan to read and reread and reread and reread this book in hopes maybe I can absorb some of Julie Ann Peters' style.

If you've looked at my profile, by now you may know I live in Western Massachusetts-a hot spot for the bullying conversation. Phoebe Prince lived and died twenty minutes northeast from me and Carl Walker-Hoover lived and died twenty minutes east from me. Both kids were victims of bullycide. And both situations had (and still have) a profound effect on me personally.

Though I won't go into detail, I want to emphasize that I believe suicide is not related to one single reason. It's a process that takes place, a road that can curve at any time. I believe this uproar about bullying is a great segue into a deeper conversation about suicide. By The Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead shows a true to life evolution. Daelyn's issues run deep. She has support and is in treatment, and yet, all it took was ONE human-Santana-to potentially alter Daelyn's course.

The words suicide or suicidal tends to illicit such a visceral reaction in people that it's impossible to see beyond the act or attempt. Julie Ann Peters wrote this book in such a non-blaming way that I believe all people should read it. And then maybe, just maybe, we can all start acting a little more human when we need to save a life. Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

Fiction Mirrors Real Life....

2011-05-18T13:36:00.000-04:00

Sometimes when I write, I think of the mistakes I've made...If I've made them with you, then this song is dedicated to you....

Missions Accomplished at NESCBWI Regional Conference

2011-05-16T11:41:00.000-04:00

From left to right: Sera, Me, Cybele, Patty & Penny

This weekend I attended New England's Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators Regional Conference (NESCBWI) with a group of writers from my area.

I had two goals:

1) Participate

2) Find resource for starting my own critique group

And once there, I created a third

3) Find way to be more active in my region.

MISSIONS ACCOMPLISHED!!!!!!

Happily, I facilitated two Special Interest Groups with NO CLUE of how what it entailed. I had planned to have a chat with one of the chair's directors prior to the conference, but it didn't happen. So, I went into the situation winging it. And it was AWESOME!! I met some really great people with the same interests I have. The two topics discussed were social media and realistic YA fiction. And man, did we talk! So, in retrospect, I'm glad I didn't have any expectations because then I avoided restrictions as well.

As for starting my own critique group? Yeah, I've been procrastinating-making a thousand excuses as to why or how I wasn't ready. Well, it just so happened, Sera and I sat next to the Regional Director of Critique Groups Saturday evening. There goes ALL my excuses out the window! So though it feels like an elephant is sitting on my chest, I'm gonna push it off and DO IT. I'm scared, beyond belief, but I need to push through it.

And finally, I asked the Co-Chair of the conference how to get more involved in NESCBWI. She said, "Well, next year's conference will be in Springfield. Where do you live?" HOW CAN I NOT JUMP AT THIS CHANCE?? So, I gave her my direct contact information and told her I'd be honored to help out in any way possible.

And now, on my first day back to my "real world", I think about all I accomplished. Really, it's nothing compared to what I learned. So much creative energy in one building, it's hard to not to feel a tad smarter. So, as I embark on the next level, I do so with great pride. SCBWI is a great organization for all children's writer's and illustrators and I GET TO BE A PART OF IT!!!

Yeah, I'm addicted to Victorious. Can you blame me?

2011-05-11T09:25:00.001-04:00

YES, I'm addicted to Victorious. I could give a thousand excuses, but I won't. It all comes down to my writing. The more I watch this show, the easier it is for me to create the strong teen girl character I want to portray. Plus, the show's theme song really takes the edge of my fear of success. And let me tell you, that fear is growing by the second, especially with what I see happening in YA today. Realistic fiction is making a comeback. Strong female characters are in demand. Uh, oh world look OUT:

"Cause you know that if your live in

Your imagination

Tomorrow you'll

Be everybody's fascination

In my victory

Just remember me

When I make it shine"

Victorious
Tags: Victorious Episodes,Victorious,Victorious Games

Reflections on AGAINST ALL ODDS by SCOTT BROWN

2011-05-10T12:45:00.001-04:00

If it weren't for my 12 year old son's (aka The Boy) interest in politics, I'd probably be like many Western Massachusetts residents.

"Who is Scott Brown?" they ask me when I mention I read his book.

"Uh, only our United States Senator," I say.

"Oh...." The person vaguely stares at me.

"He won Ted Kennedy's seat after he died," I explain.

The person's eyes glaze over. "Oh, well, I'm not into politics...."

I shrug and walk away or make a wisecrack at this point, because I know that Scott Brown is not someone who be unknown for long.

The Boy with Scott Brown-Barnes and Noble Book Signing

When I heard he was having a book signing in the area I immediately asked The Boy if he wanted to go.He was pumped. Just a few weeks prior, we'd heard Scott speak at the Republican Committee brunch in our area and both of us liked what he had to say. (And yes, even at 12, The Boy knows a lot of what's going on in our world.)

I saw it as a great opportunity to share a morning together, waiting in line. Was I shocked when I arrived to find few people waiting....he's our Senator, but, then I remembered...no one really knows who Scott Brown is. All the better for us, I thought.

Like I do for most books purchased for The Boy, I read it first. I didn't expect to like it. I mean, who wants to hear someone successful talk about how hard he had it? Frequently, these types of stories are whiny or make the person look like a superhero. But, I loved it. More than that, I related to it. Everyone has to grow up. Some people are better than others at it. For some, like Scott Brown, it came sooner than it should have. And he's used every opportunity-good and bad-to better himself.

Maybe I'm naive in believing his experiences separate him from the rest of the pack of politicians. Maybe I'm falling victim to a ploy of self-promotion. But I don't think so. Since the Republican Brunch in February (where he dissed me-the voter- for The Boy), I've been paying close attention to Scott Brown. He's in the area of Western Mass a lot, with little media fanfare. And he's requested to spend time training in Afghanistan this summer, according to the Boston Globe.

Something's different about him. I'm willing to bet his quiet, steady and focused demeanor will continue to propel him to higher levels. I certainly hope so, because I live by many of the same beliefs:

"I believe that we each create our own playing fields and that we are all capable of overcoming whatever challenges might otherwise hold us back. The ability to persevere, whatever the circumstances, lies in each one of us" -Scott Brown

And YES-The Boy will be allowed to read this book, whenever he feels he's ready!

Mother's Day Thoughts

2011-05-08T17:05:00.000-04:00

So many people say that their mother made them who they are today. And it's true...moms influence us in ways that no one else can.

But what happens when YOU are the mom?

Doesn't that change you as a person too?

Of course it does. And I'm so thankful to be a mom. I've learned more from my kids collectively than any experience in my life.

They are the mirrors of my soul: reflecting who I was, can be and will be in the future.

Does that put a price on them? NO...the cost is always mine.

I can choose to acknowledge what they are showing me or not. Sometimes it's easier than others. Often times, it's easy to overlook, explain away or ignore. But something in me won't let me. I need to grow, learn, develop. And my little critters help me so much.

So, today, Mother's Day...I'd like to thank THEM for making me a better mom than I ever thought possible!!!

Love you D & A...

"I'm gonna sit in the middle, hang my feet off the edge...."

2011-05-07T22:37:00.001-04:00

I left work the other evening and is what I saw from the parking lot. I could NOT drive away. The rainbow was perfect, so I stared at it and remembered a few important things.

#1) I remembered this song:

Why this one? Because, if you listen to the lyrics...it's perfect for me. Think of 'me', the writer and 'you' would be my readers. Plus, I've always loved rainbows!

#2) I realized that rainbows follow storms. I've been struggling with a lot lately, but seeing that reminded me it's all going to be okay. I'm going to be okay. And I'm doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing.

So, if you're going through your own storm right now, or face one someday, please feel free to remember this picture and know that a rainbow is in your future!!!

I Love Everybody...and You're Next

2011-05-04T13:44:00.000-04:00

So, apparently, I'm in the midst of a loyalty battle. Well, after reading Sera Rivers very persuasive blog with a really great title: Mingling Panties, I had to get involved. I started it after all. And yes, I did it to feed my own ego...and get a laugh out of Sera.

So, let's look at the facts. Sera and I are both REALLY social people. We both bring out the best writing in each other. And very few people understand us, even if we are rather entertaining to be around. And that makes our relationship so special and unique.

But I DO get scared, too ya know. I love everybody...not everyone can handle that. And sometimes I push people away. Even while I'm hugging you close.

NYC-WE HAVE ARRIVED!!!!!!

But, somehow, Sera, my dear, you've blown up any walls I may have tried to build. You've blasted through so many of my damned issues that I should hate you....but I don't. I love ya and even when I am famous before you, I won't ever forget that. And I will NOT let you forget me.

Why Do I Do That?

2011-04-25T16:19:00.000-04:00

"The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They don't like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that? "

-Pink, "Effin' Perfect"

Do you ever see people driving around in their cars, music rippin' and the fool is screaming the lyrics as if she wrote them?

Yeah?

That'd be ME!!!

I can't say how many stares, glares and cheers I've gotten over the years. But you know what? I DON'T CARE!!!

Right now, Pink's song "Perfect" is one of my most listened to songs...(this poses a problem when my critters are in the car, but they're so good they know to skip it because of the frequent F-bombs).

And I love the quote I posted above...and I frequently ask myself "WHY DO I DO THAT?"

I mean, why do I let other people get me down?

Why do I take stuff SO personally?

And finally, why do I have to respond DYSFUNCTIONALLY????

I'd really expect at my age, with my experience, I'd be better at relating to other people. And for the most part I do. But there's always that reminder, I have some work to do. Just when I think I have it all together, something totally throws me.

And I act like an idiot.

So, if I've been an idiot to you lately, I'm sorry. I'm trying to get back to the ME I want to be. I'm trying AGAIN to unlearn all the bad habits that have found their way back into my life.

To those who've been helping me (you know who you are!), THANK YOU for being kind, patient and understanding.

I'm a stubborn perfectionist who thinks I have to handle it all on my own. But I can't, I'm learning again. And probably will need to continue to do so.

And more than likely, I'll ask myself again: WHY DO I DO THAT?

Book Review: The Hospital at The End of The World

2011-04-23T21:58:00.000-04:00

The Hospital at the End of the World

Joe Niemczura, R.N., MS

There are 2,600 hospitals in Asia, Africa and South America which could be classified as "Mission Hospitals" - far off the beaten path, providing basic medical service to the poorest people of the world. The Hospital at the End of the World tells the story of a nurse from the USA and his first experience as a teaching nurse in Nepal.

Because this book is non-fiction, I'm reviewing it in a manner different from fiction. It will be in a discussion form versus actual critique of components.

Shortly after my first Nursing Relief trip to post-earthquake Haiti, I found myself searching for ways to integrate all that I brought home. I had pictures, memories, thoughts, but most importantly, emotions. I didn't know any other nurse who had traveled to a third world country to provide nursing care. And even though I was only in Haiti for a week, it was still life and career altering.

At the time, I was writing a blog at Advance for Nurses and another blogger interviewed Joe Niemczura R.N., MS regarding his advice for nurses doing just what I did! (The blog has since been taken down, otherwise I'd link to it.) Right away, I bought the book and read it as fast as I could. I also contacted Joe who took a lot of his personal time talking with me. And I will forever be grateful for that. He truly restored my love of nursing...

I found The Hospital at the End of The World to be a satisfying read. It was conversational enough for non-medical readers and yet interesting to me as a nurse. The one factor that separates it from other nursing memoirs is Joe's truth in emotion. He shares secrets of coping with the ups and downs, many that I didn't even know I used. He's open, honest and real about the struggles nurses face every day-whether in a third world country or in our homeland.

The structure and writing isn't perfect, but the readability of Joe's voice usurped any of that, at least for me. I tagged many pages that moved me and return to read them when I need to. Overall, I'd give this book 4 out of 5 stars.

In conclusion, I'd like to share one of my favorite paragraphs as an example of what I mean:

"When people choose their life work, they all have a vision or fantasy about what they will be doing when they are at work. It's a way to write the script of your life, which validates your self image and helps you keep going. We all have these scripts whether we know it or not. I had a pretty straightforward idea of who I was and why I was working in healthcare. For me, the daydream that sustained me was one in which I was the person who worked hard to protect and rescue helpless people."

Thank you Joe, for putting it all out there. I can't wait to hear about your upcoming 2011 trip.

And if anyone is interested in more information, please LIKE his Facebook page, where you can find pictures, videos and SO much more.

Book Review: MY FAVORITE BAND DOES NOT EXIST by Robert T. Jeschonek

2011-04-20T09:49:00.000-04:00

Photo property of HMH Books

Title:		My Favorite Band Does Not Exist

Publisher:		Houghton Mifflin Harcourt

Imprint:		Clarion Books

Pub Date:		07/11/2011

Sixteen-year-old genius Idea Deity believes that he exists only in the pages of a novel written by a malevolent, omnipotent author . . . and that he will die in chapter 64. Meanwhile, another teen named Reacher Mirage sings lead vocals for the undercover rock band Youforia . . . a band that exists in Idea’s world only as an Internet hoax that Idea himself perpetuated. Then there’s beautiful and mysterious Eunice Truant, who links their destinies. When Idea and Reacher plunge into the reality of Fireskull's Revenant, the twisted epic fantasy novel they’ve both been reading, chapter 64 bears down on them like a speeding freight train on an unstoppable collision course. Being trapped in a bad book can be a nightmare. Just ask Idea Deity.

Description: Okay, if you've read my reviews, you KNOW I'm not a fantasy/magical type reader. I always get bored with description and scene setting. This, however was NOT the case with My Favorite Band. There were a lot of little details that I expected to confuse and/or bore me...but happily, they didn't. Overall, even the simple girl I am, could follow the descriptions and create adequate pictures in my head. I must admit, though, it did get a little repetitive. In defense of that statement, the continuous reminders are rather appropriate for the type of book and audience. Overall, it was rather readeable, even if it's not my "thing". (Score: 7/10)

Narrative: In this type of story, I expect a lot of narrative. My Favorite Band had quite a bit and none of it bored me-except at the very end. But I'll touch upon that later. Overall, the three, yes THREE, concurrent/intermingling stories moved along easily. I liked bouncing between the character's different worlds- Idea Deity, Reacher Mirage, and Fireskull had individual settings with unique qualities. The sequence of events played along nicely, complimenting each plot line without getting confusing. My only disappointment was the whole novel seemed so formulated. It followed the rules/techniques of writing perfectly. NOW, as a non-writing reader, I probably wouldn't even notice. I'm studying technique now, so I'm willing to bet that's why it stood out. Anyway, I liked the way the story came together and played out. Yeah, I predicted the end pretty early on, but I found that comforting. And the few surprises that did come along, I really enjoyed. Overall, this book was a pretty good read. (Score: 7/10)

Dialogue: Robert T. Jeschonek's background in short stories and comics really shines through in his dialogue. It's full of information, action and all pertinent to the story. The voices stay true to the character, making it easy to follow who's who-- and with the number of characters in My Favorite Band, that must have been quite a task for him. Even, I-an easily confused reader--never felt lost or overwhelmed during conversations. (Score: 8/10)

Characterization: Okay-so-THREE concurrent stories are maintained in this novel. That means, for each plot line, there's a main character and a secondary character, with many more along for the ride. HOW Robert T. Jeschonek kept them all straight is a mystery to me. I noticed a lot of visual cues to keep the mind focused on the proper character, which I found very interesting. At the same time, the details set the ending up to be predictable to me but, like I said above, I didn't dislike that. Anyway, the characters are all very unique with interesting perspectives. To me, the author's creative skills really shone through in Idea, Mirage, Fireskull and everyone else. (Score: 8/10)

Resolution: As I mentioned above, I predicted the ending to My Favorite Band rather early on. But, really, I didn't mind. The resolution was creatively weaved with insight and forward thinking. The characters Idea and Mirage had lessons to learn--which they did, in a non-preachy sort of way. Even the "kings" Fireskull and Johnny grew throughout the novel. Though I felt the ending was rather contrived, it resonated with me on a deeper level. And I feel that other readers, who enjoy this genre would feel the same. To be brutally honest, I could have done without the epilogue. I'm sure the author had his reasons, but mostly I skimmed it. As far as I was concerned, the book ended at the end of the last chapter. The most surprising part of the ending to me? It was neatly packaged, but I still LIKED it! And for those of you who know my tastes, that's something. (Score: 8/10)

My Favorite Band Does Not Exist was a nice, easy read. It's another good story with a MALE PROTAGONIST...(I really need to spotlight these on my blog...all I hear at conferences is how desperate readers are to find main male characters!) I think Robert T. Jeschonek's style is one that could be entertaining to many audiences, especially middle grade and teen boys. The book is fast paced but not overwhelming. Three story lines are detailed just enough to prevent confusion and create interest. If you're looking for an amusing book that's a little different the rest, I suggest you try this one. Overall, I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars.

BURN OUT

2011-04-19T22:01:00.000-04:00

I've been thinking about the cost of burnout.

It's pretty high.

For a while, I've thought Alzheimer's or early dementia was setting in.

WHY?

I couldn't make decisions AT ALL.

I had no motivation-okay, I had bursts of motivation but ended up feeling the same a day later.

I was tired.

I was angry.

-And all of the above occurred while I was home with my family.

Then, I took some time off from my "real" job. And suddenly, my brain started working again-within DAYS!!!

FINALLY, I feel the relief. I'm able to enjoy my life, without the residual toxicity of work invading my every moment. But more striking to me-I'd allowed myself to develop immunity to the negative feeling.

Now my priorities are back in place and some things in my mind have shifted. I also have new options that weren't available a month ago. I'm ready to face more than I have in a long time.

So, now what? It's back to writing I go....and I'm pretty excited!!

I Experience the World Differently....

2011-04-06T19:58:00.000-04:00

http://www.stpatricksguild.com

I often wonder how many people ACTUALLY listen to the lyrics of songs. When you love a song, do you ever think about WHY or WHAT it is that makes you REALLY identify with a particular song or artist? I do-ALL the time.

Music is as important to me as books. I'll listen to anything that makes me feel. A lot of my music choices depend directly on my mood. If I need to be pumped up, I love Pop/Dance. If I'm sad or thoughtful-Country's my choice. If I'm mad, you can bet I'll be ripping Heavy Metal. If I'm in between-who knows? When I belonged to Columbia House (yes, I'm aging myself here) I used to confuse the HELL out of them with my selections of artists. And I loved every second of it.

Since I attended The Write Stuff pre-conference, I've been thinking about one concept I've come to accept about myself: I EXPERIENCE THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY. And that's why I write. Or is it the other way around: I'm a writer, therefore my experience of the world is different? Either way, it really doesn't matter. I see things others can't. I know things others don't. (I wish I learned this like twenty years ago-IT EXPLAINS SO MUCH!)

And my closest friends have helped to reinforce this AND remind me that it's all good. For my birthday, Sera and my beautiful niece made me CDs of songs that relate to ME! And I'll probably wear them both out by the end of the month. They're both writers (though my niece hasn't accepted yet that she is!) and see the world in the same magical way I do.

But, really, it was my other writer friend Rebecca Rose that prompted this whole new perspective on music. While we traveled to Pennsylvania for the Write Stuff, she had me listen to Blank Sheet of Paper by Tim McGraw. And it's written from a very unique point of view.

Can you see the scene that's painted? Can you feel anything? Or do you hear just another twangy country song?

Maybe this song matters so much to me because I once sat at a blank computer screen. I was scared. But I started typing, telling myself no one would ever read it, so it didn't matter. I went back a thousand times and continued typing. I've revised again and again. The words have changed, but the sentiment is still there.

And now, I have my completed novel. It's not perfect yet, but I'm getting ready to put it out there when it is. I'll be terrified, I know. But I'll do it anyway.

So, if there's something you need to write, just do it. No one has to read it. But I'm willing to bet, someday, you'll be ready. And it will be so worth it.

Found it, Finally!!!

2011-04-02T17:47:00.001-04:00

I've written.

I've learned.

I've revised.

And my novel has come a long way.

But, writers, do you know, that voice that's constantly chirping in the back of your head to create a certain WAY?

Some call it your inner editor or self censoring-but being a Disney freak-I prefer to call it MY Jiminy Cricket. He says things like: "That sounds dumb..." or "Too many words Loretta." or "No one wants to read THAT."

He exists for a reason, I know this, but still I seriously dislike him!! (No offense, Walt, really, but he needs to be quiet when I'm writing. Just sayin'.)

Anyway, I think for ONCE I quelled him. I'm not sure how it happened exactly, but I'm going to try to do it again in a few minutes. What I did was open a chapter that needed serious revisions and just had fun with it, as if I was at a workshop brain dumping. No thought about what I was trying to say or exactly which words I should use. I just wrote.

And you know what? I loved it!

When I reread it, I loved it, still!!! The narrative was real, relaxed and enjoyable. I even read it to my husband, who smiled blankly and said "Great!." (He's very enthusiastic, but does not have a reader's mind. I find it cute that he listens and tries to get it.)

So, now I truly think I've found my voice. I thought I had, but now this new stuff coming out of me feels more genuine. And I think my critique partners will agree. Yeah, it's a stretch revealing my voice, but now that it's here, I realize I've always had it...it's just been silent...all these years. Here's a tribute to one of my favorite musicians EVER! Thank you Tori Amos for inspiring me since I was seventeen years old.

Holy Writer OVERLOAD-in a good way

2011-03-27T15:02:00.001-04:00

Mary Newell DePalma

Brian Lies

In one week, I was honored to attend two writer's events. The first, was Overcoming Challenges: A Program for Writers and Illustrators. As a writer who's felt rather challenged lately, every little thing the panel members said resonated deep with in me. The event was small, intimate yet very inspiring.

Jo Knowles

Barbara O'Connor

Listening and talking to like minded people pushed me to keep going just a little bit further. And meeting each of them gave me the strength to do it that much better.

Sera Rivers, Jo Knowles, and ME!

And then, I went to a workshop in Pennsylvania: The Write Stuff.

There, the faculty was DONALD MAAS, an agent passionate about great writing and his wife LISA RECTOR MAAS, an independent agent, also dedicated to writing.

On Day One, Donald covered a variety of topics, including character and plot development, emotional conflict, and building of tension. It felt like eight hours of intensive psychotherapy with my book. WOW! It hurt, in every way possible.

Day Two involved more secondary aspects as minor characters and settings, as well as Lisa's input on sagging middles. Yeah, another eight hours of yanking, crushing and building up my novel again.

I think the MOST easily shared piece of information I took away from these two days is exactly how much psychology and sociology goes into every great book. The more tortured the soul, the better-meaning both writers and characters-ha ha!

In addition-passion goes a long way. It was so easy to feel the love of words, good books and writers exuding out of the souls of Donald and Lisa. Just being in the room with them was enough to make me REALLY want to say what I need to say.

So, in closing, I'd like to share what ignites my passion-the very stimulus for my book, titled JUST A GIRL. When I forget, I listen to this song-LOUD!!! and then I remember....

Book Review: OKAY FOR NOW by GARY D. SCHMIDT

2011-03-23T21:44:00.002-04:00

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Title:		Okay For Now

Publisher:		Houghton Mifflin Harcourt

Imprint:		Clarion Books

Pub Date:		04/18/2011

ISBN:		9780547152608

Author:

Gary D. Schmidt

As a fourteen-year-old who just moved to a new town, with no friends and a louse for an older brother, Doug Swieteck has all the stats stacked against him. So begins a coming-of-age masterwork full of equal parts comedy and tragedy from Newbery Honor winner Gary D. Schmidt. As Doug struggles to be more than the "skinny thug" that his teachers and the police think him to be, he finds an unlikely ally in Lil Spicer—a fiery young lady who smelled like daisies would smell if they were growing in a big field under a clearing sky after a rain. In Lil, Doug finds the strength to endure an abusive father, the suspicions of a whole town, and the return of his oldest brother, forever scarred, from Vietnam. Together, they find a safe haven in the local library, inspiration in learning about the plates of John James Audubons birds, and a hilarious adventure on a Broadway stage. In this stunning novel, Schmidt expertly weaves multiple themes of loss and recovery in a story teeming with distinctive, unusual characters and invaluable lessons about love, creativity, and survival.

Many times I've heard the call for great books with male protagonists. Well, Okay for Now is realistic, emotional and very well written. It's no wonder Gary Schmidt has won multiple prestigious awards for his writing. And I'm beyond honored to write of review of his book before it's even released.

Description: Gary Schmidt has an amazing way of describing things without the reader knowing it. Everything is so well blended that pictures just appeared in my head. I never felt distracted by long verses of description, yet immediately my mind effortlessly disappeared into the world of Doug Swieteck. I FELT like I was in Yankee Stadium or the Dump or anywhere this story took me. And to me, THAT is the best kind of reading I could ever find. (Score: 10/10)

Narrative: Conversational is the only term I can think of to describe Gary Schmidt's writing style for this book. I always felt Doug was talking to me-even when he was thinking to himself. Rarely can I find a book that so immerses me in a character's head like this one. Every word was worth reading, absorbing and loving. The most amazing part? Some of the references used were of little or no interest to me before I read it-but now I find I'm curious to learn more. (Score: 10/10)

Dialogue: Due to Gary Schmidt's casual narrative style, the dialogue always flowed naturally in the text. Nothing was forced. Doug and Lil and all the characters authentically spoke to each other. In addition, it felt like, as the reader, I was a part of the conversation, especially when Doug was talking with the school principal. This book was a great lesson for me that less CAN be more. Okay for Now speaks in ways I can only hope to imitate someday. (Score: 10/10)

Characterization: Every character is distinct, interesting and changes throughout the book. Gary Schmidt REALLY amazed me with the way he showed this. The story starts with Doug knowing where he stands in his new community but never loses sight of his own beliefs. I love the way every character responds to Doug and the way it gradually changes over time. And really, what's shown is more about human nature than so many other books I've read. And I think that's what makes this book so very readable. (Score: 10/10)

Resolution: The end of the book is gradual, calm, uplifting and absolutely perfect for me. I love how not only the character grows but teaches others to as well. And for a YA book, I couldn't ask for more. I know kids of all ages can change the world, if we'd only open our eyes and let them. I know kids have valid thoughts and ideas, no matter the age. The end of Okay for Now so inspired me to want to be a better writer, so I can help spread the word that our youth is the answer to all of our questions. (Score: 10/10)

Okay for Now will be on my list of favorite books forever. It's readable, relate-able, and SO not boring. There isn't one negative comment I could make about this book, I loved it so much. I'd recommend this to readers of all ages, boys and girls. Librarians and teachers should have it in their schools. I think the world has so much to learn and Gary Schmidt makes the lessons easy and fun. I rate this book 5 out of 5 stars.

Sometimes I Forget...But Then I'm Reminded Secret #6

2011-03-18T20:24:00.000-04:00

I fantasize. I believe. I wish.

Most of the time these are great qualities, leading me to be optimistic even during the darkest of winters. I can be a pillar of hope for so many people I love. And often my positivity reaches out to strangers.

But sometimes, even I reach the end of my rainbow. And I have yet to find a pot of gold.

I pout. I cry. I say things I shouldn't to people who may not deserve it.

And during these times, I tend to shut down. I forget about the people who appreciate every part of me. I feel alone and lost with no one to show me the way.

Every time, though, there's always someone who appears, lends a hand and helps me back onto my feet.

This post is dedicated to everyone who reminds me of who I am. Thank you....

BOOK REVIEW: Everything I Was by Corinne Demas

2011-03-09T18:16:00.000-05:00



Publisher:		Lerner Publishing Group

Imprint:		Carolrhoda Lab

Pub Date:		04/01/2011

ISBN:		9780761373032

Reading Level: 5

Interest Level: 6-10
Ages: 11-16

Author:

Corinne Demas

"My walls were stripped, and all that was left in the room was a pile of boxes and my mattress propped against the wall."

So begins Irene's journey from an Upper West Side penthouse to—well, she's not entirely sure where. Irene's investment banker father is "downsized" when his company merges with another. When he can't find work, her family's lifestyle—and her socialite mother's spending—quickly catches up with them. Eventually, they're forced to move in with Irene's grandfather in the big family farmhouse upstate. But what begins as the most disastrous summer of her life takes a surprising turn when she meets a most remarkable family.

Everything I Was is the story of a young woman deciding what she wants for herself after she thought she'd lost everything.

I'm a lover of realistic fiction. If you've read my other reviews, you already know this. But this book caught my interest because it's so timely. How many teens now are disrupted because their parents have lost their jobs? When I was a teen back in the *cough, cough*...well, okay, when I was a teen, I nearly faced the same dilemma. I was fifteen when my father lost his job. Immediately, my parents began talking of options. All I heard was: MOVING! All my high school sweet heart heard was: MOVING! It was a very traumatic time for me and I'm thankful to today read a story that exemplifies my 'what could have been'.

Description: Corinne Demas has a great talent for providing detail with few words. Her descriptions are quick, interesting and instantly place the reader exactly where she should be. I did not get skip paragraphs or words to move the story along. I loved how she set the scene in my mind without telling me exactly what to think. (Score: 8/10)

Narrative: There's a wonderful mix of narrative and dialogue. The balance is perfect. The inner thoughts of the main character is varied, emotional and interesting. It's a simple read, as it should be for its designated age level. The story moves along at a steady pace, neither dragging nor leaving the reader behind. Very little is predictable and yet, as the reader I felt comfortable immersing myself in Corinne Demas's words. (Score: 8/10)

Dialogue: The verbal exchanges in Everything I Was is focused, purposeful and entertaining. Not only does the reader learn things about the characters, but sometimes I actually learned things about myself. And that to me is great. The questions raised really made me thing and apply the situation to myself. Overall, I was forced to feel...and I loved it! (Score: 9/10)

Characterization: I have to admit, I expected Irene to be older than her character actually is. I'm not sure if it was the cover that led to that conclusion or her character's portrayal-her thoughts are deep and well developed. And so are all the supporting characters. So when some of the interactions seemed a little immature, I was momentarily taken aback. But in the end, it fit. It turned out to be my favorite component in this book. (I can't tell you HOW irritating it is to read the opposite.) ALL the characters were easily identified by their personalities, some likeable and some not. (Score: 9/10)

Resolution: Climax and ending are key points that I'm studying right now in my writing, so I tend to pay particular attention to it. What I've learned from Everything I Was is the beauty of the gentle character arc. Irene grows slowly and subtly. She thinks. She learns. She accepts. It's not dramatic nor is the issue at hand truly resolved, but as the reader, I felt complete. To me, THAT is real life and THAT is how realistic fiction should end. When do we ever have all the answers? We don't. Corinne Demas must know this and integrated it with excellent talent. (Score: 9/10)

Everything I Was is a sweet, realistic story. It's timely, sensitive and thought provoking. Irene's voice is distinct. Corinne Demas does not speak down to nor about teens. It was a pleasure to read and review this book. I'd recommend this book to tweens and even some teens that could relate to this experience. It's so well written, I may even tell adults who have kids in this situation to read it as well. I really think it gives great insight to the thought process of a group stereotypically called egocentric. I rate this book 4 out of 5 stars.

It's Complicated...Or is is just me? Secret #5

2011-03-09T09:20:00.000-05:00

Everything looks different above the clouds....

Relationships, friendships...people in my life....sometimes I'd rather not deal with any of it.

I want to hide under the covers of my bed.

Forget the world.

Tell everyone to leave me alone.

This began....um, I don't even know when.

And that's why I started writing Just A Girl-because I wanted to explore my personal patterns of relationships.

What I found? Honestly? Is that it's so much easier to gloss over the truth, make it something it's not...FICTIONALIZE it.

And yet, something in me yearns to tell my truth. Something bigger keeps trying to stop it.

After listening to Sara Zarr at the Winter Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators, my perspective has changed. (THANK YOU SARA! I can't wait to listen to you for an ENTIRE WEEK in June!!) Her words about keeping a close inner circle of people made a lot of sense, and well, the need to have a good therapist.

She's right.

I now know the truth I need to infuse into my novel. The crap I still need to cut out because it deflects what I really need to address: the part of me who fights intimacy only to FINALLY let it in, take a chance, and feel utterly and completely disappointed by human nature.

Are ALL relationships this complicated or is it just me?

I have a feeling, it's not just me. And that's exactly why I need to tell my story.

Except, it's hard--almost impossible, really.

But thankfully, I have a therapist. And she's great.

I also have an inner circle of relationships--but that's still a work in progress. But then again, so am I.

Truthfully, I'm tired of carrying this around with me. I want to understand it better. I need to. I'm done with the same old cycle of fear, intensity, broken promises and pain.

And I'm terrified to post this blog....because even when I kick you away, I'm really thinking "Please, Please, Don't Leave Me"....

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The HARDEST Part of Parenting (for me)-Secret #4

2011-03-01T11:26:00.001-05:00

I used to think the lack of sleep was the hardest part of parenting.

Or the financial cost-kids are really expensive and I thought that would be stressful.

Even the constant teaching of manners, grammar, behavior isn't nearly as hard as the HARDEST part. I think sometimes teaching can be fun-as demonstrated in the picture of me, Doug and Anna at the beach. We're practicing the "MONKEE WALK" and having a lot of laughs doing it.

The truth is, (and I learned this ages ago in my very first child development class but conveniently FORGOT it) as we raise our children, subconsciously we relive our own childhood.

Does this mean we have to grow up all over again?

YUP!

Though many choose not to and I can't say I blame them-it's freaking harder than doing it the first time, at least for me.

Baby Girl is seven. We went on a family outing last week. The souvenir she chose was a necklace. It was one of those that came with a matching one-two halves of a heart that read BEST FRIEND. I watched her lovingly box, wrap and label it. Her eyes gleamed with joy and pride. When school was delayed Monday morning-she nearly cried.

Selfishly, I flashed back to my own childhood. A tornado of emotions swirled in me. The purity of friend love and the sorrow of learning life is more complicated than matching necklaces nearly paralyzed me. Does everyone have memories like this? Or is it just me?

But most of all, because Baby Girl loves so freely (like me) will she suffer the same hurts I have? Can I protect her? Should I warn her that people suck?

And that's where my growth comes in. People do not suck. My wounds are that-MINE. I need to find the source of them and leave her passion alone.

Anna is showing me how. I can choose to look away, ignore it and force my beliefs on her. But I don't want to. I want to grow. I long to embrace the lessons she is bringing into my life, heart and soul.

But damn, it's HARD-harder than the sleepless nights of infancy and the tantrums of toddlers. As a matter of fact, I might have a tantrum now! Just kidding.

Still, there's a part of me that wants to teach her all that I know--bubble wrap her from the world of disappointment. And I think she intuitively knows that. Which is why she shared the following song with me and cried. I cried too, not because I was sad-- but because I was healing. And it felt really, really good.

Thanks, Baby Girl. I love you. And for you, I will push through the hardest part of parenting to be the best person I can be. I promise to do the best I can to keep learning so you "Never Grow Up."

2011-02-27T20:25:00.000-05:00

Book Review:

Plan B

By Charnan Simon

Darby Creek

Series: Surviving Southside
ISBN-10: 0-7613-6163-4
ISBN-13: 978-0-7613-6163-3

Pub Date: 3/01/11

Reading Level: 4
Interest Level: 6-12
Ages: 11-18

When I first started this book, I was a little taken aback by the simplicity of the writing. So, true to my nature, I did a little research. And what I found, impressed me. The Surviving South Side Series is, as quoted from the press release:

"This innovative YA series is a six-book set of urban fiction novels that's written at a

fourth-grade reading level, specifically designed for reluctant and striving readers,

including those who read below grade level or are ESL/ELL student."

And once I read that, I knew I had to review this book. I think this concept is brilliant. I've always loved reading, been an avid reader. But, I also know a lot of people who are not. And what better way to get teens-who might not otherwise-reading? The topics are fresh and timely. The stories are complex but the writing is not.

Description: Words are not wasted in this novel-and I mean that in a good way. Very little description is used. Settings and characters are integrated into the reader's mind via dialogue or short narrative. And through this, it's easy to stay focused on the story at hand. There's no interruptions, sweeping the reader into another world. Overall, description served its purpose well. Score: (7.5/10)

Narrative: Again, because of the nature of this series, the narrative is well paced and simplistic. The story line is obvious, but it's supposed to be. There are no secrets or surprises-although there's plenty of emotional tension. The reader knows the main character, Lucy, gets pregnant. I found I wanted to keep reading because I wanted to know how she would formulate a decision. There's not a lot of inner dialogue, even though Plan B is written in first person and still I was taken through the process intimately. If I were to label Plan B, I'd call it a well written character driven novel. Score: (8/10)

Dialogue: The majority of the story is told through character exchanges. Much can be shown through what people are saying and Charnan Simon does it very well. Sometimes the verbal exchanges are clipped a little short, but I'm guessing that's because of the reading level of the book. Score: (7/10)

Characterization: Right from word one, I felt like I knew the main character Lucy. Her quirky, obsessive-compulsions felt natural, never forced. Her friends had unique names that matched their personalities. They best part: Charnan Simon shows a lot of diversity in every character while avoiding stereotypes. I felt like I knew each person intimately. And when we shared in Luke's turmoil, it felt very real. Score: (8/10)

Resolution: The climax of Plan B was smooth and predictable. But then, it should be, based on the premise of which it was designed. There was just enough tension to keep it interesting, just enough detail and plenty of fast paced change to keep the story moving. The emotional power of Lucy's situation was never overshadowed. The complexity of her decisions were central and though provoking. And, again, as I LOVE them, this ending was left wide open for the reader to keep thinking about long after the book has been put down.

Plan B by Charnon Simon is a charming, light read. The topic is heavy, as it should be, but it's presented in a very readable way. There's no over dramatization, but at the same time (and maybe more importantly) minimization does not occur. This book is perfect for older tweens and some teens to read. And for the brave educators and parents, looking for a way to broach an uncomfortable subject, Plan B is a viable tool. If you're looking for a complex, drawn out novel, you won't find it in Plan B, but that's what makes it so charming, in it's own way. I'd rate this book 4 out of 5 stars and recommend it to mature 12-14 year olds. I'd also give it to some high schoolers who are seeking a realistic, but not complex read.

Book Review: SAVANNAH GREY by CLIFF MCNISH

2011-02-21T14:39:00.000-05:00

Title:		Savannah Grey

Publisher:		Lerner Publishing Group

Imprint:		Carolrhoda Lab

Pub Date:		04/01/2011

ISBN:		9780761370253

Category:

FICTION - JUVENILE: Action & Adventure (incl. Interactive Adventures): Action & Adventure

Author: Cliff McNish

Savannah Grey needs to keep moving. She doesn't know why, but she can't let herself get tied down by too many people. It’s almost like she's being chased by something. And now something strange is happening with her neck—with her throat.

Then she meets Reece—a guy who seems to understand her needs. He even knows about her neck. The same thing is happening to him. It's as if their voices are becoming weapons, warming up for some kind of attack.

Nature has been preparing for battle with the universe's ultimate monster for millennia. The time to fight is almost here. The weapon is Savannah Grey.

Before I begin this review, I'd like to make it very clear that, though I have an imagination, it's very difficult to entertain me with action-adventure, paranormal, and horror type writing. I am a realist. Maybe it's the nurse in me, but very few fantastical stories can force me to believe in alternate worlds. So, what drew me to review Savannah Grey? I haven't a clue. Maybe it was the simplicity of the title, the beautiful cover or the way the book was described. In any event, I surprised myself when I asked to review it. I was not disappointed.

Description: I am not one who particularly needs a lot of description. Normally, I'm bored to tears with it. But Cliff McNish did a great job of weaving description in with the story. I found the story unraveled well with the continuing descriptions of Savannah's interesting trait. The more she learned, the more the reader learned. And that left me curious, wanting to know more. I appreciated his style of quick tidbits that were thoughtful enough to leave me with a clear picture, but not skipping words, paragraphs, or phrases. And he made the me-the nonbeliever think this situation could possibly happen to a fifteen year old girl. Score: (8/10)

Narrative: I think Cliff McNish's style of narrative is what kept me reading this book. I loved the technique he used to tell Savannah's story and then concurrently telling The Orcassa's story. It showed a lot of thought, research and preparation. Not only was I impressed, but I was very intrigued as well. The change from mostly first person to occasional third person broke up the narrative and added extra tension. The plot was clear from the start and each event moved the reader forward to the next. Nothing seemed out of place or sequence. I do have to say I found a lot of the story rather predictable, though I was able to override that due to his beautiful writing style. And considering the genre-that's difficult for me to say. Score: (8/10)

Dialogue: Much of the story unfolded with both outer and inner dialogue of characters. Neither of which were boring or contrite. However, when Savannah was figuring things out internally, I think the author could have done a little better here. Savannah seemed to just understand/know things. I found this a little distracting in that I had to consider how she figured things out. Granted, it could have been instinct or the thing in her throat telling her, but that small detail kind of got to me. Though it caused me pause, it wasn't bad enough to make me stop. Overall, the dialogue was well written, interesting and productive. Score: (8/10)

Characterization: Savannah Grey is a fifteen year old girl with a big burden to bear: save the world from ancient evil. But it's clear from the start that she is no normal girl. Her character starts strong and stays that way. As a matter of fact, all characters are like that. Instantly, I felt as if I knew everyone involved in the story. As I said above, I loved the story behind the scenes of the developing Orcassa, the Horror, and the Nyktomorph. And through his characterization, I learned to understand even the bad guys. Cliff McNish did a great job with even the smallest of characters. Score: (8/10)

Resolution: The climax of this story came together well. All the pieces worked together to create a full picture in clever ways. Although at some points, it did feel rather drawn out. I didn't get bored, but I did think one or two of the barriers was a little much. But then again, that could be my difficulty with this genre. Overall, however, the actual ending thrilled me. I love wide open endings that leave the reader to come to his/her own conclusions. I despise being told what to think and feel when I close out a book. Cliff McNish answered all questions, but left me to decide the rest. To me, nothing can beat that. Score: (8/10)

For a beautiful, fantastical read, I'd rate this book 4 stars out of 5. I recommend you pick up Savannah Grey when it's released in the US, even if you're not a huge fan of paranormal/fantasy and horror. There's a lot to be said about the power of love and Cliff McNish found a very interesting way to share his thoughts and feelings on it.

No Such Thing As Lucky: Secret #3

2011-02-18T19:02:00.001-05:00

This is a picture of me with my husband and kids. Of all holidays, it was Christmas. And YES, we dressed in costume for the occasion. Why? Long story short: BECAUSE WE CAN!

A series of events since Christmas led me to really ponder the word LUCKY. I've heard a lot of people say it about themselves and me. But does LUCK really exist?

I don't believe it does.

Why?

Because LUCK is subjective. Maybe I have more things than some, but most certainly others have more. That would make me UNLUCKY in comparison. But maybe I don't want those things. Or maybe, it's not the things that matter to me.

I see it this way: everything I have, I earned.

I work, play and live hard.

I incite change.

I take chances.

And, therefore, I succeed, at least in my mind.

I guess what people don't realize is that things don't always work out for me. And that's my fault, probably. I prefer not to complain or whine about challenges. Instead, I focus on the positive, keep taking steps forward, and never, ever give up. And though many things I start end somewhere I never expected, I celebrate success every chance I get.

Failure is does not exist in my world, mostly because I refuse to acknowledge it--much like LUCK.

Therefore, I'm not really LUCKY. I get what I deserve, both good and bad. I make mistakes, but I learn from them.

So, please forgive me if I stop you next time you talk about how LUCKY you are. It's then I shall ask you everything you did to deserve the opportunity.

Book Review: THIS GIRL IS DIFFERENT by JJ JOHNSON

2011-02-05T23:21:00.000-05:00

This Girl is Different

JJ Johnson

Peachtree Publishers

Pub Date: 04/01/2011

ISBN: 9781561455782

Genre: Children's, Literature & Fiction, Parenting & Families, Teens & YA

"What happens when a girl, homeschooled by her counterculture mother, decides to spend her senior year in public school? First friendship, first love—and first encounters with the complexities of authority and responsibility."

Description: JJ Johnson does a great job of using few words to convey a lot of information. The setting is clear right from the start: a small town in upstate New York. And there's no question about the atmosphere inside the high school the main character, Evie, attends. On the down side, a few things were mildly repetitious taking a little from the story. Score: (6/10)

Narrative: After the first chapter, which was a little choppy, this turned out to be one of my favorite pieces of this novel. Evie has a lot of inner dialogue regarding events that have transpired. In many cases, this can lead to long, drawn out pieces of narrative. But not in this book! I loved being inside Evie's head as she learned. Knowing how she was growing from her mistakes and the viewpoints of others was so interesting.

The story itself, about Evie's experiences in public school after years of homeschooling, moved along at a quick pace, never once lending itself to slowing. The challenges were believable, strategically placed and did not feel contrived. Sure, maybe a "normal" senior in high school couldn't rattle the whole population to seriously consider democracy in public schools, but Evie is different-hence the title of the book. We--women and girls--need more protagonists like her! Score (8/10)

Dialogue: I was fascinated with the verbal exchange in this book. All conversations led somewhere without boring me. Facts were revealed. Action happened. But most of all, I felt as if I was in the room with the characters while they were speaking. And you know what? Many of the confusions that come with conversation were well played out in this novel. Teens are not dumb, though developmentally they're egocentric. JJ Johnson did such a great job of showing this, especially through Evie's thoughtful inner dialogue. Score: (8/10)

Characterization: Each character had unique traits that overcame stereotypes within Evie's head. Characters were not predictable and left me guessing. I loved the way JJ Johnson implied facts without telling the reader exactly what to think. To some readers, this ambiguity may be confusing or frustrating, but it's exactly what I want out of a book.

I particularly liked the leadership role of the principal, Mr. Folger (I wonder if his name paid tribute to coffee?) and the free spirited grounded feeling portrayed by Martha. Even the teens, Jacinda and Rajas, were unique without being overdone. Score: (8/10)

Resolution: The ending of this story was very well executed. All loose ends were tied up but not forced. Each piece of the puzzle fell into place, but not too neatly. (Gift wrapped endings make me CRAZY!) The end satiated me and left me wondering if there was going to be more. Is there room for a sequel? Yes. Am I desperate for one? No. Of course, being the cynic I am, I'd prefer a little more mess at the end, but that's me. Overall, though, I liked the ending. Score: (8/10)

Final Thoughts: I would recommend this book to readers looking for a strong protagonist and role model in a realistic setting. The story clearly depicts what can happen when one person challenges the status quo. And, for me, it leads into the question of sexism. If Evie had been a boy, would the results have been different? Hmmm, interesting topic for book club, I think.

Anyway, this book is a quick read with many themes I think teens and many adults can relate to. I don't feel it's preachy or condescending but has a valid point worth taking in.

For an interesting, realistic read, I'd rate this book an overall score of 3 and 1/2 stars out of 5. Why not 4, even though I liked it? Mostly because a few insignificant, repeated ideas--namely the ankle injury/pain, and the word lightning used a few too many times. But generally, it's a good read if you're looking for an interesting YA novel.