Saturday, April 2, 2011
Found it, Finally!!!
And my novel has come a long way.
But, writers, do you know, that voice that's constantly chirping in the back of your head to create a certain WAY?
Some call it your inner editor or self censoring-but being a Disney freak-I prefer to call it MY Jiminy Cricket. He says things like: "That sounds dumb..." or "Too many words Loretta." or "No one wants to read THAT."
He exists for a reason, I know this, but still I seriously dislike him!! (No offense, Walt, really, but he needs to be quiet when I'm writing. Just sayin'.)
Anyway, I think for ONCE I quelled him. I'm not sure how it happened exactly, but I'm going to try to do it again in a few minutes. What I did was open a chapter that needed serious revisions and just had fun with it, as if I was at a workshop brain dumping. No thought about what I was trying to say or exactly which words I should use. I just wrote.
And you know what? I loved it!
When I reread it, I loved it, still!!! The narrative was real, relaxed and enjoyable. I even read it to my husband, who smiled blankly and said "Great!." (He's very enthusiastic, but does not have a reader's mind. I find it cute that he listens and tries to get it.)
So, now I truly think I've found my voice. I thought I had, but now this new stuff coming out of me feels more genuine. And I think my critique partners will agree. Yeah, it's a stretch revealing my voice, but now that it's here, I realize I've always had it...it's just been silent...all these years. Here's a tribute to one of my favorite musicians EVER! Thank you Tori Amos for inspiring me since I was seventeen years old.