|My Inspiration for The Quest|
I let the question linger in my head for a long time.
And then, thanks to my friend Sera Rivers (she writes a blog for them) I stumbled across a Psychology Today article:
"What a Female Mid-Life Crisis Looks Like".
I read it. Bookmarked it (on my phone!) and read it a thousand times.
Now, the thing is, I'm YOUNG-no where near mid-life...at least I hope not. I mean this stuff doesn't usually happen until someone's in their forties, right? (And shush, you people who know my real age! I'm NOT THAT CLOSE!!)
But, I started early, according to modern timelines: college right out of high school; marriage, child and career right out of college. Yeah, I moved fast in my twenties, making gains most adults today won't even consider until closer to thirty. So, I guess it makes sense that I'd need to re-eval my life earlier than most.
In truth, it started about the time my father died. July 13, 2004. He was only 61. I had just turned 30-an age I dreaded most of my twenties.
Another big turn came four years later when my youngest started school. Suddenly, I was alone for hours at a time, with absolutely no direction. I figured I'd find my way eventually, but I didn't-until last year.
All this time, I'd been writing. I knew it was going to take me somewhere. But in my mind, I was wasting time, producing something that was a total "what if." Then, my attitude shifted via life events: my trip to Haiti and multiple writer's conferences to name a few.
I began seeking change in earnest. I explored opportunities that had potential to take me somewhere. Some did, some didn't. I tried on different roles and discarded parts of myself I no longer needed.
I started a QUEST for a new, better me.
The CRISIS part was the reaction from everyone around me-friends, family, etc.
Today, I'm nowhere near complete. I'm still QUESTING, creating CRISIS along the way. But, that's who I am, I guess: a fire-starter, a rabble rouser, and a trouble maker. I can't be happy being anything less. No, I take that back! I WON'T be happy with anything less.